Hrm?
Well school has ended for this year.
I am to be a jumore next year. That should be interesting.
Shelby and Nick broke up.
It was kind of depressing, but it needed to be done.
Now he knows how I feel, why I had to break up with him.
Because it was the same thing for him as it was for me.
Just he feels like he loves me, and I thought I was in love with someone else.
Now, I just don't know if I ever was. It's hard for me to tell.
I think was in love with him. I really do.
Because I know I love him. He's one of my best friends. And I will always love him.
But I think I'm getting over him, I think Im moving on. And that's all Ive needed.
Was to be able to let go of the happiness I felt with him, and be able to find it some where else.
And Ive found someone who can make me that happy, if not more so. And he'll never do the stupid things he did.
He won't show up on my door step needing me to take care of him. He won't ever do that to me.
And I believe that.
I'm just sad its taken me so long to see a good thing.
I knew I had feelings for him, and I always have. I just never saw him as being able to help me.
Not until recently. Not until things got complicated like they always do.
He trusts me, and I trust him. and my loyalty is with him, as his with me.
As you can see. I've been thinking.