Helped A Friend, Helped Myself
I feel useless lately. I can't seem to focus to get anything done. I'm avoiding even rather easy things. It's embarrassing.
However, today someone called me to help them work through a sticky situation that was causing anxiety, and focusing on that really made me feel better. To be able to use my own mental spiraling experiences to calm down theirs was... soothing.
I used to do that type of thing for Robin all the time, but I am rarely able to talk to her now, despite our friendship being back on. Between her health problems and her divorce preparations, she rarely has much time to talk and I get it.
While talking to my anxious friend, the topic of IFS therapy came up, and I realized I haven't done it in a while, and I really need to jump into that again. A part or aspect is blocking me and I need to find out why and get back on track.
I'm sure this whole lack-of-focus and inability to write issue is stemming from the health scare I just had. Now I have crazy-bad insomnia that jumps from going to bed too late to getting up too early and back again. I keep getting strung out either late morning or late afternoon and needing to nap, so my sleep schedule is all over the place and that's not helping! When I take sleep aids (whether melatonin or 5-HTP or valerian or benadryl or cannabis) I end up getting nightmares that are disturbing enough to keep me awake for at least an hour before I can return to sleep.
It's obvious something is wrong with me somewhere...
So I'm going to review my IFS work so far (much of it done on LJ, so that helps!) and jump back into it. I have to break through this writing block (which seems more like a fear-of-my-audience block, honestly) and get back to my book projects!
Stay tuned.
However, today someone called me to help them work through a sticky situation that was causing anxiety, and focusing on that really made me feel better. To be able to use my own mental spiraling experiences to calm down theirs was... soothing.
I used to do that type of thing for Robin all the time, but I am rarely able to talk to her now, despite our friendship being back on. Between her health problems and her divorce preparations, she rarely has much time to talk and I get it.
While talking to my anxious friend, the topic of IFS therapy came up, and I realized I haven't done it in a while, and I really need to jump into that again. A part or aspect is blocking me and I need to find out why and get back on track.
I'm sure this whole lack-of-focus and inability to write issue is stemming from the health scare I just had. Now I have crazy-bad insomnia that jumps from going to bed too late to getting up too early and back again. I keep getting strung out either late morning or late afternoon and needing to nap, so my sleep schedule is all over the place and that's not helping! When I take sleep aids (whether melatonin or 5-HTP or valerian or benadryl or cannabis) I end up getting nightmares that are disturbing enough to keep me awake for at least an hour before I can return to sleep.
It's obvious something is wrong with me somewhere...
So I'm going to review my IFS work so far (much of it done on LJ, so that helps!) and jump back into it. I have to break through this writing block (which seems more like a fear-of-my-audience block, honestly) and get back to my book projects!
Stay tuned.