Coming Down
Is what happened on Saturday night.
I was at a get together in an atmosphere that I would normally enjoy, and it started off fine but in short order I found myself feeling out of sorts and tired. I suspect a substantial part of it was coming down from the high of accomplishment surrounding my recent pushup challenge.
For much of Sunday I was wistful and indecisive. It didn't help that we had visitors around taking up common areas. I was happy to have them there, but I did feel kind of hemmed in. By the end of the day I was dressed to run to the gym, but I couldn't actually make the decision to go. I just found myself pacing around. Eventually I did go and got a concentrated 10 cal row, 10 pullup, 10 situp AMRAP workout done in 15 minutes. Then I ran home.
Getting exercise helped, as it always does. I was struck by the thought that I can't exercise constantly. I can do pushups and feel like a champion and hear how inspiring I am, but then that goes away and nothing inside me has changed. I still have to face the same problems. The sense of not fitting anywhere and having no purpose returns every time. Maybe that is just going to keep happening and I need to learn how to deal with it.
Today I got my proper fire gear including boots, so I can return the second hand stuff they loaned me (after doing one more in gear workout.) I also did some shopping and came away with two near identical pairs of shoes as part of a buy one get one free deal. Also after some inexplicable falls on a very good day last week, today was a good day on the market. ERA and CCV surged over 10% and may go further.
Tomorrow we will have a house dinner now that Surveyor (named for her occupation) has moved in and is getting settled. There is some new furniture in the house too.
TW: Around the block with Bulgarian sandbag, 8 tire flips, 50 slegehammers - 3 rounds. 29:45.
I was at a get together in an atmosphere that I would normally enjoy, and it started off fine but in short order I found myself feeling out of sorts and tired. I suspect a substantial part of it was coming down from the high of accomplishment surrounding my recent pushup challenge.
For much of Sunday I was wistful and indecisive. It didn't help that we had visitors around taking up common areas. I was happy to have them there, but I did feel kind of hemmed in. By the end of the day I was dressed to run to the gym, but I couldn't actually make the decision to go. I just found myself pacing around. Eventually I did go and got a concentrated 10 cal row, 10 pullup, 10 situp AMRAP workout done in 15 minutes. Then I ran home.
Getting exercise helped, as it always does. I was struck by the thought that I can't exercise constantly. I can do pushups and feel like a champion and hear how inspiring I am, but then that goes away and nothing inside me has changed. I still have to face the same problems. The sense of not fitting anywhere and having no purpose returns every time. Maybe that is just going to keep happening and I need to learn how to deal with it.
Today I got my proper fire gear including boots, so I can return the second hand stuff they loaned me (after doing one more in gear workout.) I also did some shopping and came away with two near identical pairs of shoes as part of a buy one get one free deal. Also after some inexplicable falls on a very good day last week, today was a good day on the market. ERA and CCV surged over 10% and may go further.
Tomorrow we will have a house dinner now that Surveyor (named for her occupation) has moved in and is getting settled. There is some new furniture in the house too.
TW: Around the block with Bulgarian sandbag, 8 tire flips, 50 slegehammers - 3 rounds. 29:45.