sad rant
im really bummed right now... i just finished balling my eyes out.
out of every week of/weekend for travis to pull shit like not turning on his phone, he chooses the one of our anniversary. i hate it! the first night he did it, it was because he 'forgot to, fell asleep' i got out of work at 1030 that night and he got out around 5... and said he wasnt going to call me because i wouldnt have picked up anyway... which i can understand, but, why didnt you think to put your phone on at all?? i told him i smelled bullshit.
and today, hes pulling the shit again... its unbelievable really. i know hes not doing it to hurt me. i mean hes the one always talking about 'our kids' 'our house' 'were practically married'.... ya know? i never said any of that, it was all him who said it first.
so, i shouldnt be crying, or leaving messages saying its pissing me off as i cry, but its really hurting me and i dont know how to get through to him. ive thought about it and said to myself... the first thing i do when i get out of work, even an hour before i get out, is think about calling him... and he doesnt do that, apparantly... hes always done it and all of a sudden these 2 times hes not.. and i hope its not a habit because it will lead to bad things.
anyway, im so bummed out about it.
out of every week of/weekend for travis to pull shit like not turning on his phone, he chooses the one of our anniversary. i hate it! the first night he did it, it was because he 'forgot to, fell asleep' i got out of work at 1030 that night and he got out around 5... and said he wasnt going to call me because i wouldnt have picked up anyway... which i can understand, but, why didnt you think to put your phone on at all?? i told him i smelled bullshit.
and today, hes pulling the shit again... its unbelievable really. i know hes not doing it to hurt me. i mean hes the one always talking about 'our kids' 'our house' 'were practically married'.... ya know? i never said any of that, it was all him who said it first.
so, i shouldnt be crying, or leaving messages saying its pissing me off as i cry, but its really hurting me and i dont know how to get through to him. ive thought about it and said to myself... the first thing i do when i get out of work, even an hour before i get out, is think about calling him... and he doesnt do that, apparantly... hes always done it and all of a sudden these 2 times hes not.. and i hope its not a habit because it will lead to bad things.
anyway, im so bummed out about it.