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::sigh:: i guess ill update. mainly for Sara :p
lets see....i really dont know what to say.
im lost. im confused. im stressed. im sad. im content. im depressed.
i have great friends.
i have great roommates.
i have great sisters.
i also have a selfish attitude
a depressing feeling that wont go away
and a thought that i wish i would never think again
how can 2 differnet sides come from the same person...at the same time.
i feel like im fuckin bipolar.
holidays are a bitch to get through...i figure if i work my life away, ill survive. i really dont know though
why cant i just get better?
why cant i go through a day w/o crying?
why cant i get rid of this feeling...this horrible feeling of guilt, depression and sadness?
why cant i stop lying to everyone that cares?
why cant i stop lying to myself?
i wish i had answers. or atleat a full day of happiness. neither will come quick enough
lets see....i really dont know what to say.
im lost. im confused. im stressed. im sad. im content. im depressed.
i have great friends.
i have great roommates.
i have great sisters.
i also have a selfish attitude
a depressing feeling that wont go away
and a thought that i wish i would never think again
how can 2 differnet sides come from the same person...at the same time.
i feel like im fuckin bipolar.
holidays are a bitch to get through...i figure if i work my life away, ill survive. i really dont know though
why cant i just get better?
why cant i go through a day w/o crying?
why cant i get rid of this feeling...this horrible feeling of guilt, depression and sadness?
why cant i stop lying to everyone that cares?
why cant i stop lying to myself?
i wish i had answers. or atleat a full day of happiness. neither will come quick enough