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well, cliff at my work is gonna be leaving for a couple weeks starting next friday. i'm a little nervous, but i know i can handle it. at least...i'm hoping i can handle this. i know he has a lot of responsibility that rides on his shoulders, and i'm gonna have to take that on. but, i know the hardest part will be opening. i'm just glad me and him have been able to talk little by little in the past couple of weeks.
so, yeah. work has been better than usual. i've been gettin along with everyone, even if i can't stand some of the people some of the time. it's usually good though. i've been workin a lot too. i like it though. it gives me something to do.
will and i are doing fine. i've been out of it lately though. if it's not my dad and his shit, it's something else reminding me of my past. it can really drag me through the mud, yet he's there. it's as if he's fighting these storms that i go through and he's a beacon in the torrential rain that i'm surrounded in. as if i'm in a life raft without a paddle and i can see him just ahead of me, and he's leading me out of the wavy shark-infested waters. i dunno, it's weird.
i almost completely freaked out today when i was in the mall. it was weird. the mass amounts of people just freaked me out so bad. but, i didn't freak, i was just horribly uncomfortable. i dunno.
i went bowling tonight. that was pretty cool. i haven't bowled in so long, so i'm probably gonna be a little sore. not to mention...i really sucked...but it was fun. i'm just glad i had fun. it feels good to be able to go out on a friday night. heh. so this is what it's like to have plans with friends on a friday night? i think i like it.
i'm pretty tired right now, so i'm just kinda hanging out. i might pour myself a nice drink. maybe some coconut rum and dr. pepper. i'm not entirely sure. i know it'll knock me on my ass, which will be nice. heh...maybe...heh.
i'm off though. gonna go chill around, listen to my music and go to sleep later. i get to sleep in tomorrow for the first time in a long time. i can't wait. i'll be up by 2:00 latest. hehehehe...yay for sleeping in.
so, yeah. work has been better than usual. i've been gettin along with everyone, even if i can't stand some of the people some of the time. it's usually good though. i've been workin a lot too. i like it though. it gives me something to do.
will and i are doing fine. i've been out of it lately though. if it's not my dad and his shit, it's something else reminding me of my past. it can really drag me through the mud, yet he's there. it's as if he's fighting these storms that i go through and he's a beacon in the torrential rain that i'm surrounded in. as if i'm in a life raft without a paddle and i can see him just ahead of me, and he's leading me out of the wavy shark-infested waters. i dunno, it's weird.
i almost completely freaked out today when i was in the mall. it was weird. the mass amounts of people just freaked me out so bad. but, i didn't freak, i was just horribly uncomfortable. i dunno.
i went bowling tonight. that was pretty cool. i haven't bowled in so long, so i'm probably gonna be a little sore. not to mention...i really sucked...but it was fun. i'm just glad i had fun. it feels good to be able to go out on a friday night. heh. so this is what it's like to have plans with friends on a friday night? i think i like it.
i'm pretty tired right now, so i'm just kinda hanging out. i might pour myself a nice drink. maybe some coconut rum and dr. pepper. i'm not entirely sure. i know it'll knock me on my ass, which will be nice. heh...maybe...heh.
i'm off though. gonna go chill around, listen to my music and go to sleep later. i get to sleep in tomorrow for the first time in a long time. i can't wait. i'll be up by 2:00 latest. hehehehe...yay for sleeping in.