Silent flowers : Chap 4/? ruki x uruha
Title - Silent flowers
chapter - 4/?
Author - lucisa
Genre - AU, horror, romance
Rating - overall R, NC-17 for this chap
Characters - The gazette
Pairings - Ruki x Uruha, more to come
Warnings - unbeta-ed, weird Uruha, dark fic, slow update
Disclaimers - just the story...
Summary - Ruki is working as a detective, he's currently working on a case until suddenly he was told to train the weird freshmen... the dead girls, the mysterious freshmen... what will Ruki do?
comment - finally!!! now that the exam is done, hope i could update faster! sorry for the wait X|
THANK YOU SO MUCH DEAREST black_fenrir ILU! <3
chap 1, chap 2, chap 3
Chapter 4
I felt like I’ve been having weird dream… I think I’ve dreamt that someone has kissed me… I moved around as I felt there’s something heavy on top of me… I opened my eyes and started to look around. I’m surprised that I found Uruha was laying on top of me… this is weird… it’s the first time I didn’t had that dream again… does it have… something to do with Uruha?
While I was deep in my thought I didn’t realize that the man on top of me was starting to wake up.
“nnhhh… Ruki…” he hugs me tighter and shook his head trying to make sure I’m still with him. Unlike his usual self… he looked very adorable and cute when he’s sleeping… he looked like a little boy who slept with his mother.
“Sun is still low… why bother to wake up?” he talked between my chest
I smiled as I rubbed his head “wake up slowpoke, we shouldn’t sleep too long… we have things to do”
He slowly lets go of me and rubbed his sleepy eye “but I don’t want to wake up…”
“Come on, we have things to do” I gently grabbed his arms and helped him to get up.
“Okay…” he got up and took a seat in the edge of the bed
I grabbed my tutoring book before taking a seat in a sofa in front of him. I grabbed my glasses out of my pocket and start to open it. When I wore my glasses and about to read… I felt a pair of hands wrapped around my face, and pulls it. Now Uruha’s curious face is in front of me. Since when did he take his blindfold off??
He only smiled brightly to me “if a *renge were to grow…will *hinagiku grow beside it?”
“I don’t understand…” I forgot how many times I’ve said this word… and maybe I’ll say this word a lot more…
“*red tsubaki is blooming… but…half of the field we’re filled with *sakurasou…”
I need to talk about something else… I really couldn’t understand what does he meant… I’m starting to feel desperate for tutoring him… it’s useless…
“Uruha, do you like flowers?”
“Butterflies like it!”
“……………I’ll take that as a yes…” again…
*_*
The honey blond were mostly giggling around the park. There are a lot of flowers in the park. I found him very childish beside his complicated way of thinking and the way he expressed his thoughts… it’s like… he’s in a different world than any of us… he’s like… cloud… yeah. Unreachable, always changes and following where the wind blows it…
“Ruki~ look~” he made a flower head dress
I could only smile when he showed it to me… it’s really weird at how he got his self very attached to me…
“This is for you” he putted the head dress on top of my head, he smiled brightly when I lowered my head a bit and accepted the head dress.
“Ne… Ruki…do flowers blooms at the time they’re going to die…?”
“Off course not… why do you think so?”
“I think *sayuri we’re growing in his field” when Uruha said the word ‘his’, all of his happiness we’re all gone from his face…
“Who did you mean by he?” Uruha doesn’t answer me, he started to look around in a weird manner… it seems that he’s searching for something “What are you looking?”
“I’m looking for sand to put his fire out…” again he mentioned his in such fear. A few moments later, I found Uruha has blindfolded his eyes again.
“Why did you close your eyes again?”
“There are flames that have its own will…” he trembled and curled himself.
Maybe… if I asked from his point of view… “Why are you so afraid about the other flame?”
“Because he bears *sayuri… and he-he could do terrible things!!” Uruha trembled harder, his face were completely filled with fear. I really need to search for the meaning of his words… but… how???
He suddenly hugged me “I’m scared Ruki!!! I’m scared!!” he hugged me even tightly. I could only try to calm him by rubbing his back in a soothing manner. Soon his body wasn’t trembling anymore. He went calm, but I think it’s weird for Uruha to be calm this fast.
“Uruha?” I rubbed his back again, trying to make sure whether he’s conscious or not. He still doesn’t move “Uruha??”
“I’m alright… I just want to be like this for a while…” he whispered to me. Maybe now is not the right time for asking about ‘him’
“Ne Ruki… will you stay with me?”
Well… I’m supposed to tutor you… so…“Uh… yes?”
“Please don’t leave me alone… I want to be with you…”
I could only sigh as I rubbed his back again… I can’t find the right answer for him… I can’t always be there for you… why does it hurt when I think about it?
*_*
I turned the car off as I wake Uruha in the next seat. I rubbed his cheek, trying to wake him up. “………Uruha? Hey…Wake up……we’re back”
He rubbed his sleepy eyes and mumbled something I couldn’t understand and started hugging me again.
“Uruha…” I tried to move him, but he won’t let me go.
“Promise me you won’t leave me…”
“…………Uruha I-”
“So you’re going to leave me after all…” He lets me go. Dammit! That’s not what I meant!
“I believed in you…” his voice is trembling as if he was holding his tears.
“Uruha listen…i-“ Before I managed to say more, Uruha already opened the car door and walked to the police department. He was greeted with a confused Reita. Uruha still has his blindfold covering his eyes, but he managed to walk without crashing things.
“Reita!!! hold Uruha!!” Reita quickly grabbed Uruha’s hand and hold him in place, but Uruha’s reaction was violent… he punched Reita as he yelled “DON’T TOUCH ME WITH YOUR DIRTY HANDS!!!”
“Ouch!!” Reita winced in pain as I rushed out of the car and helped Reita who fell on the floor.
“Uruha!!! What do you think you’re doing????”
“I hate him!!”
“But you don’t have to do that!!! He was only doing what he has to do!!” my tone was getting higher. I moved my gaze back into Reita
“Ruki, I’m alright…”
“What?? You said you’re alright?? I’m going to call Kai. Stay here while I take Uruha back”
“I could take care of my self, you better take care of Uruha! Hurry!!!” He pointed into Uruha. Uruha had walked away, he hold a sharp glass in his bleeding hands pointing it into his wrist.
“URUHA!!!! STOP!!!” I ran into his direction, quickly grabbed the glass.
“Let me go!!” he kept struggling and trying to grab the glass back. I felt my skin was torn by the sharp glass, but still… I grabbed the glass tightly trying to stop Uruha. Uruha’s grip went weak as he felt blood starting to drip out of my hand.
“Ruki!!!” Kai shouted from afar as a few officers went closer to Uruha and held both of Uruha’s arms. The officer made him throw the glass away and carried him back to his cell. Kai quickly went into my direction as he treated my hand.
“What the hell is he thinking????”
“…………………………” I can’t really say a word… “I don’t know…”
“They’ll take care of Uruha. Come on, we have to treat your wounds”
“No need to…”
“Ruki???”
“What???” I’ve felt blank… I don’t feel anything even though the cut is deep and my bloods were clearly dripping from my hand…
“Are you really alright??? We have to treat your wounds!! Otherwise you’ll going to be infected!”
“It doesn’t matter… I have to see Uruha” I need to get things cleared
“……………………” Kai grabbed his tool kit, taking an antibiotic gel with some bandages “At least this’ll help”
I looked into Kai’s direction, questioning his action towards me.
“Stop looking at me like that. I do this for you… You won’t listen to me anyway, so all that I could do is giving you some first aid. At least it’ll stop the blood. Done!”
“………thanks” I waved my hand to Kai and went after Uruha.
*_*
“He’s currently locked in this room sir”
“Can I come in?” The room keeper nodded and opened the door for me. After I closed the door behind me, once again I saw Uruha were being treated like a psychoneurotic patient. There’s a glass wall separating me and Uruha. I went to Uruha’s side, and walked into his direction. He only curled up in a corner of the bed.
“Ruki?” he moved his head around, I think he noticed my arrival here.
“Why did you do that?” I tried to sound as calm as I could. I walked closer.
“I-I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to hurt you…’
“It’s not about me!!! I ask why did you attack Reita??” I started to yell
“Because I hate him!!!”
“Only because of that??? Because you hate him it doesn’t mean you could hurt him!!”
“But I really hate him!!! I hate it when he was the one with you!!”
I felt like something was stabbed through my heart. I couldn’t believe my ears with Uruha’s words.
“This is nonsense!!” I walked away from Uruha, moving away from the glass wall.
“Ruki!!! Wait!!! Ruki!!!” Uruha started to sob as he walked after me and hit the glass with his hands.
“Please don’t hate me!! Ruki!!” he kept banging on the wall with his hand. His voice is incredibly shaking from holding his sobs. I rested my back on the wall, trying to clear my head.
“Ruki……*sob* please…*sobs* don’t hate me…” he kept banging on the wall. Shit!!! What is he thinking?? Reita’s my cousin!!! Why would the hell he think something stupid like that??? When I turned my gaze around, Uruha were on the floor, he’s still sobbing and banging the wall that his hand was swollen from too much banging. I quickly moved back to the other room and pulled him out of the floor. He sobbed so hard that he can’t even say a word properly. I tried to calm him by hugging him and rubbed his back. “Don’t you ever do that again!! Reita’s the only family that I’ve got!”
“I-I promise *sob* i-*sob* I won’t” he tried hard to talk as he hugged me tightly. I cupped Uruha’s cheek “What are you thinking anyway?”
“I-I thought he’s your-“ Uruha’s voice went dead as I sealed his mouth with mine. I could feel his smooth lips and the taste that only belong to him. I licked his lower lips and he opened his mouth, allowing my tongue to explore his mouth. I used my hand to explore his slim body, and he moaned when I did so. We were kissing the whole time… running out of breath, panting when we finally broke the kiss. I really want to see his eyes… I stretched my hand to move his blindfold but he stopped me again.
“Please… let it be like this…” he nearly whispered when he said those words. I’m to blame for it… I caressed his cheek again before crashing my lips against his again. Both of our hands were busy exploring one to each other’s body. I grabbed his shirt, throwing it somewhere in one swift motion before crashing our lips back again, hungry for the taste. His sweating body, his hot breath and… the blindfolded eyes… somehow I found it…sexy… Uruha pushed me until I fell to the bed. Even at a time like this he still got me confused… he crawled on top of my body, and started stripping me… my heart were beating faster as he kicked his own pants somewhere, grabbing my erected cock and moving up into a sitting position… ready to move.
“Uru… wait… you haven’t prep-AHHHH!!” Uruha’s entrance felt burning. I can’t finish my word because of the sudden pleasure that coursed through my body. Uruha gasped hard when my length fully entered his body. I rubbed my hands on his back and his hips, trying to soothe his pain “Are you alright?? Why so sudden??” Uruha stayed still, trying to get used to the uncomfortable intrusion. He gritted his teeth and his breaths were getting harsh. He didn’t answer me as he crashed our lips again. They were sweet and passionate. He started to move his hips without letting go of our kiss… Moans were falling from both of us between the kisses, mixed with the sound of skin crashing against skin. Since our lungs needed to breath, unwillingly I moved away from his lips. Changing my target into his exposed neck, he moaned loudly when I took a bite in his shoulder.
Our moves were getting faster as we searched for a release. I grabbed his neglected cock and started pumping, eager to see him come. A few strokes and thrusts were more than enough for him. He screamed my name as he shot his load, messing my stomach and hand. Seeing him arching his back high, still blindfolded with face twisted in ecstasy, I couldn’t hold long enough as I shouted his name and spilled my seeds into his welcoming entrance. He fell on top of me as he tried to get his breath back to normal. I pulled out of him, hugged his tired body and kissed his shoulder.
“Don’t leave me…” he whispered those words into my ears before falling into sleep
Still I can’t find the right answer…
How pathetic…
There are no words of love that ever spoken…
But what am I feeling right now…?
a/n
the words in * were hanakotoba (flower language in japanese verse)
Renge : Far from the one he loves/Purity/Chastity
Hinagiku : faith
Tsubaki : In Love
Sakurasou : Desperate
Sayuri : Hatred/Revenge
anyways, if you're interested more about it... just google it with the keyword hanakotoba
c n c is <3
chapter - 4/?
Author - lucisa
Genre - AU, horror, romance
Rating - overall R, NC-17 for this chap
Characters - The gazette
Pairings - Ruki x Uruha, more to come
Warnings - unbeta-ed, weird Uruha, dark fic, slow update
Disclaimers - just the story...
Summary - Ruki is working as a detective, he's currently working on a case until suddenly he was told to train the weird freshmen... the dead girls, the mysterious freshmen... what will Ruki do?
comment - finally!!! now that the exam is done, hope i could update faster! sorry for the wait X|
THANK YOU SO MUCH DEAREST black_fenrir ILU! <3
chap 1, chap 2, chap 3
Chapter 4
I felt like I’ve been having weird dream… I think I’ve dreamt that someone has kissed me… I moved around as I felt there’s something heavy on top of me… I opened my eyes and started to look around. I’m surprised that I found Uruha was laying on top of me… this is weird… it’s the first time I didn’t had that dream again… does it have… something to do with Uruha?
While I was deep in my thought I didn’t realize that the man on top of me was starting to wake up.
“nnhhh… Ruki…” he hugs me tighter and shook his head trying to make sure I’m still with him. Unlike his usual self… he looked very adorable and cute when he’s sleeping… he looked like a little boy who slept with his mother.
“Sun is still low… why bother to wake up?” he talked between my chest
I smiled as I rubbed his head “wake up slowpoke, we shouldn’t sleep too long… we have things to do”
He slowly lets go of me and rubbed his sleepy eye “but I don’t want to wake up…”
“Come on, we have things to do” I gently grabbed his arms and helped him to get up.
“Okay…” he got up and took a seat in the edge of the bed
I grabbed my tutoring book before taking a seat in a sofa in front of him. I grabbed my glasses out of my pocket and start to open it. When I wore my glasses and about to read… I felt a pair of hands wrapped around my face, and pulls it. Now Uruha’s curious face is in front of me. Since when did he take his blindfold off??
He only smiled brightly to me “if a *renge were to grow…will *hinagiku grow beside it?”
“I don’t understand…” I forgot how many times I’ve said this word… and maybe I’ll say this word a lot more…
“*red tsubaki is blooming… but…half of the field we’re filled with *sakurasou…”
I need to talk about something else… I really couldn’t understand what does he meant… I’m starting to feel desperate for tutoring him… it’s useless…
“Uruha, do you like flowers?”
“Butterflies like it!”
“……………I’ll take that as a yes…” again…
*_*
The honey blond were mostly giggling around the park. There are a lot of flowers in the park. I found him very childish beside his complicated way of thinking and the way he expressed his thoughts… it’s like… he’s in a different world than any of us… he’s like… cloud… yeah. Unreachable, always changes and following where the wind blows it…
“Ruki~ look~” he made a flower head dress
I could only smile when he showed it to me… it’s really weird at how he got his self very attached to me…
“This is for you” he putted the head dress on top of my head, he smiled brightly when I lowered my head a bit and accepted the head dress.
“Ne… Ruki…do flowers blooms at the time they’re going to die…?”
“Off course not… why do you think so?”
“I think *sayuri we’re growing in his field” when Uruha said the word ‘his’, all of his happiness we’re all gone from his face…
“Who did you mean by he?” Uruha doesn’t answer me, he started to look around in a weird manner… it seems that he’s searching for something “What are you looking?”
“I’m looking for sand to put his fire out…” again he mentioned his in such fear. A few moments later, I found Uruha has blindfolded his eyes again.
“Why did you close your eyes again?”
“There are flames that have its own will…” he trembled and curled himself.
Maybe… if I asked from his point of view… “Why are you so afraid about the other flame?”
“Because he bears *sayuri… and he-he could do terrible things!!” Uruha trembled harder, his face were completely filled with fear. I really need to search for the meaning of his words… but… how???
He suddenly hugged me “I’m scared Ruki!!! I’m scared!!” he hugged me even tightly. I could only try to calm him by rubbing his back in a soothing manner. Soon his body wasn’t trembling anymore. He went calm, but I think it’s weird for Uruha to be calm this fast.
“Uruha?” I rubbed his back again, trying to make sure whether he’s conscious or not. He still doesn’t move “Uruha??”
“I’m alright… I just want to be like this for a while…” he whispered to me. Maybe now is not the right time for asking about ‘him’
“Ne Ruki… will you stay with me?”
Well… I’m supposed to tutor you… so…“Uh… yes?”
“Please don’t leave me alone… I want to be with you…”
I could only sigh as I rubbed his back again… I can’t find the right answer for him… I can’t always be there for you… why does it hurt when I think about it?
*_*
I turned the car off as I wake Uruha in the next seat. I rubbed his cheek, trying to wake him up. “………Uruha? Hey…Wake up……we’re back”
He rubbed his sleepy eyes and mumbled something I couldn’t understand and started hugging me again.
“Uruha…” I tried to move him, but he won’t let me go.
“Promise me you won’t leave me…”
“…………Uruha I-”
“So you’re going to leave me after all…” He lets me go. Dammit! That’s not what I meant!
“I believed in you…” his voice is trembling as if he was holding his tears.
“Uruha listen…i-“ Before I managed to say more, Uruha already opened the car door and walked to the police department. He was greeted with a confused Reita. Uruha still has his blindfold covering his eyes, but he managed to walk without crashing things.
“Reita!!! hold Uruha!!” Reita quickly grabbed Uruha’s hand and hold him in place, but Uruha’s reaction was violent… he punched Reita as he yelled “DON’T TOUCH ME WITH YOUR DIRTY HANDS!!!”
“Ouch!!” Reita winced in pain as I rushed out of the car and helped Reita who fell on the floor.
“Uruha!!! What do you think you’re doing????”
“I hate him!!”
“But you don’t have to do that!!! He was only doing what he has to do!!” my tone was getting higher. I moved my gaze back into Reita
“Ruki, I’m alright…”
“What?? You said you’re alright?? I’m going to call Kai. Stay here while I take Uruha back”
“I could take care of my self, you better take care of Uruha! Hurry!!!” He pointed into Uruha. Uruha had walked away, he hold a sharp glass in his bleeding hands pointing it into his wrist.
“URUHA!!!! STOP!!!” I ran into his direction, quickly grabbed the glass.
“Let me go!!” he kept struggling and trying to grab the glass back. I felt my skin was torn by the sharp glass, but still… I grabbed the glass tightly trying to stop Uruha. Uruha’s grip went weak as he felt blood starting to drip out of my hand.
“Ruki!!!” Kai shouted from afar as a few officers went closer to Uruha and held both of Uruha’s arms. The officer made him throw the glass away and carried him back to his cell. Kai quickly went into my direction as he treated my hand.
“What the hell is he thinking????”
“…………………………” I can’t really say a word… “I don’t know…”
“They’ll take care of Uruha. Come on, we have to treat your wounds”
“No need to…”
“Ruki???”
“What???” I’ve felt blank… I don’t feel anything even though the cut is deep and my bloods were clearly dripping from my hand…
“Are you really alright??? We have to treat your wounds!! Otherwise you’ll going to be infected!”
“It doesn’t matter… I have to see Uruha” I need to get things cleared
“……………………” Kai grabbed his tool kit, taking an antibiotic gel with some bandages “At least this’ll help”
I looked into Kai’s direction, questioning his action towards me.
“Stop looking at me like that. I do this for you… You won’t listen to me anyway, so all that I could do is giving you some first aid. At least it’ll stop the blood. Done!”
“………thanks” I waved my hand to Kai and went after Uruha.
*_*
“He’s currently locked in this room sir”
“Can I come in?” The room keeper nodded and opened the door for me. After I closed the door behind me, once again I saw Uruha were being treated like a psychoneurotic patient. There’s a glass wall separating me and Uruha. I went to Uruha’s side, and walked into his direction. He only curled up in a corner of the bed.
“Ruki?” he moved his head around, I think he noticed my arrival here.
“Why did you do that?” I tried to sound as calm as I could. I walked closer.
“I-I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to hurt you…’
“It’s not about me!!! I ask why did you attack Reita??” I started to yell
“Because I hate him!!!”
“Only because of that??? Because you hate him it doesn’t mean you could hurt him!!”
“But I really hate him!!! I hate it when he was the one with you!!”
I felt like something was stabbed through my heart. I couldn’t believe my ears with Uruha’s words.
“This is nonsense!!” I walked away from Uruha, moving away from the glass wall.
“Ruki!!! Wait!!! Ruki!!!” Uruha started to sob as he walked after me and hit the glass with his hands.
“Please don’t hate me!! Ruki!!” he kept banging on the wall with his hand. His voice is incredibly shaking from holding his sobs. I rested my back on the wall, trying to clear my head.
“Ruki……*sob* please…*sobs* don’t hate me…” he kept banging on the wall. Shit!!! What is he thinking?? Reita’s my cousin!!! Why would the hell he think something stupid like that??? When I turned my gaze around, Uruha were on the floor, he’s still sobbing and banging the wall that his hand was swollen from too much banging. I quickly moved back to the other room and pulled him out of the floor. He sobbed so hard that he can’t even say a word properly. I tried to calm him by hugging him and rubbed his back. “Don’t you ever do that again!! Reita’s the only family that I’ve got!”
“I-I promise *sob* i-*sob* I won’t” he tried hard to talk as he hugged me tightly. I cupped Uruha’s cheek “What are you thinking anyway?”
“I-I thought he’s your-“ Uruha’s voice went dead as I sealed his mouth with mine. I could feel his smooth lips and the taste that only belong to him. I licked his lower lips and he opened his mouth, allowing my tongue to explore his mouth. I used my hand to explore his slim body, and he moaned when I did so. We were kissing the whole time… running out of breath, panting when we finally broke the kiss. I really want to see his eyes… I stretched my hand to move his blindfold but he stopped me again.
“Please… let it be like this…” he nearly whispered when he said those words. I’m to blame for it… I caressed his cheek again before crashing my lips against his again. Both of our hands were busy exploring one to each other’s body. I grabbed his shirt, throwing it somewhere in one swift motion before crashing our lips back again, hungry for the taste. His sweating body, his hot breath and… the blindfolded eyes… somehow I found it…sexy… Uruha pushed me until I fell to the bed. Even at a time like this he still got me confused… he crawled on top of my body, and started stripping me… my heart were beating faster as he kicked his own pants somewhere, grabbing my erected cock and moving up into a sitting position… ready to move.
“Uru… wait… you haven’t prep-AHHHH!!” Uruha’s entrance felt burning. I can’t finish my word because of the sudden pleasure that coursed through my body. Uruha gasped hard when my length fully entered his body. I rubbed my hands on his back and his hips, trying to soothe his pain “Are you alright?? Why so sudden??” Uruha stayed still, trying to get used to the uncomfortable intrusion. He gritted his teeth and his breaths were getting harsh. He didn’t answer me as he crashed our lips again. They were sweet and passionate. He started to move his hips without letting go of our kiss… Moans were falling from both of us between the kisses, mixed with the sound of skin crashing against skin. Since our lungs needed to breath, unwillingly I moved away from his lips. Changing my target into his exposed neck, he moaned loudly when I took a bite in his shoulder.
Our moves were getting faster as we searched for a release. I grabbed his neglected cock and started pumping, eager to see him come. A few strokes and thrusts were more than enough for him. He screamed my name as he shot his load, messing my stomach and hand. Seeing him arching his back high, still blindfolded with face twisted in ecstasy, I couldn’t hold long enough as I shouted his name and spilled my seeds into his welcoming entrance. He fell on top of me as he tried to get his breath back to normal. I pulled out of him, hugged his tired body and kissed his shoulder.
“Don’t leave me…” he whispered those words into my ears before falling into sleep
Still I can’t find the right answer…
How pathetic…
There are no words of love that ever spoken…
But what am I feeling right now…?
a/n
the words in * were hanakotoba (flower language in japanese verse)
Renge : Far from the one he loves/Purity/Chastity
Hinagiku : faith
Tsubaki : In Love
Sakurasou : Desperate
Sayuri : Hatred/Revenge
anyways, if you're interested more about it... just google it with the keyword hanakotoba
c n c is <3