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1: When you find yourself feeling angry, upset, hurt, used, or violated, write it down. Since we don't know what our boundaries are until they're crossed, we depend on these signals to alert us. View the situation as if it were happening to someone else. How would your inner diva have handled the situation? Where are the boundries? What is okay and what is not?
So today I did get a bit bitter. Edna (the main night PIC at my store) gave me some tips on how to recover the department wich basically amounted to wander and look for things that are on the ground or on top of the wracks and then if you have time when that's done do real recovery (making the store look like it didn't have customers for anyone who doesn't understand retail lingo). It frustrated me. I feel like I'm not able to get to the actual problem and it all feels very superficial. I want to do something that actually has some kind of lasting value, not making things supericially straitened until the next customer comes along. I was so bitter that I was temped to do a worse job than usual, just to prove that my way was better. But that would be counterproductive so I did things her way. I think the department looked horrid when the night was over, but it looked the same kind of horrid that every other depearment looks so I guess it is what Beaverton Fred Meyer wants it to look like.
Do I see anything I should have done different? Well, aside from not getting annoyed over something so trivial not really. This is the job I was given to do. It is my duty to do it. So why did it bother me? I guess it felt like insignificant work. I really do hate tideying. Is there some way I should have stood up to myself? Some boundary that was crossed? Not that I can tell. I just get pissy when I feel undervalued but I am valued as much as anyone else and don't have a right to expect more.
So there's today . . . .
Maybe tomarrow we'll get somewhere with this exercise
So today I did get a bit bitter. Edna (the main night PIC at my store) gave me some tips on how to recover the department wich basically amounted to wander and look for things that are on the ground or on top of the wracks and then if you have time when that's done do real recovery (making the store look like it didn't have customers for anyone who doesn't understand retail lingo). It frustrated me. I feel like I'm not able to get to the actual problem and it all feels very superficial. I want to do something that actually has some kind of lasting value, not making things supericially straitened until the next customer comes along. I was so bitter that I was temped to do a worse job than usual, just to prove that my way was better. But that would be counterproductive so I did things her way. I think the department looked horrid when the night was over, but it looked the same kind of horrid that every other depearment looks so I guess it is what Beaverton Fred Meyer wants it to look like.
Do I see anything I should have done different? Well, aside from not getting annoyed over something so trivial not really. This is the job I was given to do. It is my duty to do it. So why did it bother me? I guess it felt like insignificant work. I really do hate tideying. Is there some way I should have stood up to myself? Some boundary that was crossed? Not that I can tell. I just get pissy when I feel undervalued but I am valued as much as anyone else and don't have a right to expect more.
So there's today . . . .
Maybe tomarrow we'll get somewhere with this exercise