yeah so thats the way it goes...

[ltlvrgnmary]

yeah. i havent been on here in forever..but whatever. i was having a really good few days and of course life has to get fucked up again. it SUX!!! today was my mom's b-day party and we were sittin there and her parents called. my grampa has a bunch of tumors and the doctors think that theyre cancerous. he goes in tomorrow to be checked. im really scared. yeah i know he's old, but i cant deal with any more stress. and i dont even wanna think about it. i mean what if he dies?? im fucking terrified. its no good. and then with me. i dont know what it is, but i have this pain in like my abdomen and i cant really lift anything without it hurting and when i sit and stand it fucking KILLS me..so im worried. but hopefully its just that endometryosis thing and nothing too serious. i think ill have to talk to brittany about it. why do things have to suck so bad? always! urg so im really frustrated and i feel like im gonna burst. or break down or something which is lame cuz i just kinda got back to normal. and the fact that i feel REALLY lonely isnt helping much either.

but on a lighter note...im blonde..i love it!