oops...
oops 1.
I meant to post back in here every so often, but it never seemed to go that way.
oops 2.
I meant to post something in relation to this myspace blog.
I'd had an im convo w/this guy at school (*) who seemed interested in me... then he foudn out I was Catholic... & yeah. that's what I'm referring to. Elsewhere in that convo he said the reasons he was first intrigued by me because of 3 thigns: hair, artsy-ness (he phrased it better but I can't remember), & my lips... yeah. amusing. whtever. but I drew this picture about it. & I wanted to post it in here cuz I knew he wouldnt see it... & I figured he might look for it w/in the next few days after that, so yeah. here it is.
he hasnt talked to me... since that day actually (w/the exception of one odd hi over the im or something). whatever. he was okay.
oops 3. (which is why I came here)
I've been rambling in my last two myspace blogs (1, 2) about this guy at school (a different guy) who I've been thinking I like but have been in kindof denial about (♥). I still dont really want to physically "say" it, you know. I havent told peter. But peter knwos waht I'm talking about when I say I was writing about it. I dont know if he's read it though. I wonder if he's ready to see that yet... I think he likes fred... but he's not ready to let go of me, yet, honestly. And i wonder if it'd hurt him that I like someone else now... someone here... somoene he doesnt know... I konw he thinks I'm "moving on w/my life" & in a lot of respects I am, but yeah. It seems like something like this could hurt him a lot... potentially. & I didnt really think about that. That's my last oops. ->sigh<-
whatever... to all of it. I just had to post it somewhere immediately different from my myspace. I know peter sometimes checks here but I dont think he'll read both things at the same time. To my myspace audience, my issue is Jason. While that is an issue, this side issue has occured to me & posting both together leads to unnecesary confusion & makes me look more dramatic than i actually feel right now. Plus peter would feel kinda put off... this is more secluded... more personal, you know.
Anyway, onward to modifying this thing to match my recent style.
-Jessica J. ( ~_J~)