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I slept a full nights sleep last night...I layed down before 11, and slept through the entire night..Untill about 9:15..I had set my alarm for 7:45, so I could get up and eat and stuff before I walked up to marching band...but I didn't hear it untill 9:15, so I may go up there at lunch to have lunch with Ashley or something...I want to see her though...Even though she is coming over today...Which is awesome...When I told her I was yesterday, I thought I was gonna cry, I had so much pent up emotion that I almost cried yesterday when I told her...It was intense, I hope things work out this time and if they don't, I hope things are different when we break up..
I'm comfortable saying that she is my first love, I never really understood that untill yesterday, when my mom asked me if Ashley was my first love, I was a bit afraid to tell my mom because I thought that maybe she would go all,"your too young to know what love is" thing, but she didn't, she told me that I didn't have to tell her because she could tell...There is no other person I want to be with, no one makes me feel the way she does, I can't even say how she does, its impossible...
The Sigh of Relief that came over me yesterday when she told me that she didn't like Matt, I got a ball in my throat just seeing her in the morning, she walked right passed me and I thought at first she was ignoring but then I said hi to her friends then she turned and seen it was me and then she called me over and was like"Yeah, I thought about, and I don't like him", I updated 7 times about her telling me that her feelings came back for Matt, I thought I lost her again, I didn't like that feeling, I hated it...
Last night, Online, I told her I was ready, I didn't actually ask her to be my girlfriend, so Today, I think I will, even though, she said that we were together, I didn't do it online, I'd rather do it in person..OH, I could go do at lunch, wait, I could, but I don't want to like throw of her concetration...
I can't wait to see her today...I'm gonna go and make a sandwich or something....
I'm comfortable saying that she is my first love, I never really understood that untill yesterday, when my mom asked me if Ashley was my first love, I was a bit afraid to tell my mom because I thought that maybe she would go all,"your too young to know what love is" thing, but she didn't, she told me that I didn't have to tell her because she could tell...There is no other person I want to be with, no one makes me feel the way she does, I can't even say how she does, its impossible...
The Sigh of Relief that came over me yesterday when she told me that she didn't like Matt, I got a ball in my throat just seeing her in the morning, she walked right passed me and I thought at first she was ignoring but then I said hi to her friends then she turned and seen it was me and then she called me over and was like"Yeah, I thought about, and I don't like him", I updated 7 times about her telling me that her feelings came back for Matt, I thought I lost her again, I didn't like that feeling, I hated it...
Last night, Online, I told her I was ready, I didn't actually ask her to be my girlfriend, so Today, I think I will, even though, she said that we were together, I didn't do it online, I'd rather do it in person..OH, I could go do at lunch, wait, I could, but I don't want to like throw of her concetration...
I can't wait to see her today...I'm gonna go and make a sandwich or something....