Dear fuck up
Dear fuck up
I am a bystander, and have known you for five years now. I have a great deal of like for you and consider you a friend. On top of that though was the fact - that up until three hours ago - you were my best friend's boyfriend. Yes, i know what you're going through in a way and why you're doing this to her - even if you don't know yourself. Lionheart has done the same thing to me and still is since November last year. I know you're lost and you are going through one of the biggest alterations in your life with graduating and all... but my loyalty lies with her. She's broken and bruised and crying like a lost lamb ad it hurts for me to hear the pain in her sobbing. the pain i've wished she'd never have to experience. I've known her ten years, and never have i heard her cry like that...
SHE is my sister, my best friend and whatever it is that 's eating you, you need to be able to answer her questions because it is slowly eating her and she's only gone through three hours of this... you are probably feeling pain too. Confusion. Absolute mind numbing insanity. But please, for both of your sakes, be available to talk when she really needs it. And no that doesn't mean she is going to hound you or play sick puppy because you and i both know she's stronger than that and way too stubborn to fall at your feet. She will in her own time need to sort out and resolve issues. As will you.
Please be careful with my best friend, you've just killed a part of her that was amazing. And if she can resuscitate it herself, it will be even more amazing again one day...
So fuck up, you've broken my girl's heart. And unlike the other best friend, i'm the one who will be unbiased and watch. i'm there for you both. but let me make this one thing clear. do not under any circumstances convince yourself that just because you think it's okay to try to kiss her or call as per usual or expect to hang out, mean she does. you need to talk before the friendship can begin. you are something she needs to get over right now, NOT get under.
Don't make the easily made mistake of thinking that she is at ease with seeing you because you are at ease seeing her and it comforts you. she may convince herself it is better to be with you than without you, but the "in a relationship" status has been removed and here, there is no room for maybes...
be careful with her. don't use her, even if you don't mean to. it's hard, and it sucks. but watching her go through that while i'm almost at the end of this stage myself is driving me nuts. Nutsbecause i know there is nothing i can do to fix anything one way or another. Nuts because i know that this silly maybe, maybe not phase everyone goes through is completely fucking unnecessary. and fucking nuts because she blames herself...
Dear fuck up. You fucked up. but there's still time to amend it. give her a solid answer. if it's yes, tell her. if it's no, tell her. and give a "why" for each. don't say maybe and then think it's fine. because then you will have lost the friend you want to keep while she gets over the boyfriend you took away.
Love me
PS - i'm still here for you as a sounding board and a wall. i am not taking actions. you need to do that by yourself x
I am a bystander, and have known you for five years now. I have a great deal of like for you and consider you a friend. On top of that though was the fact - that up until three hours ago - you were my best friend's boyfriend. Yes, i know what you're going through in a way and why you're doing this to her - even if you don't know yourself. Lionheart has done the same thing to me and still is since November last year. I know you're lost and you are going through one of the biggest alterations in your life with graduating and all... but my loyalty lies with her. She's broken and bruised and crying like a lost lamb ad it hurts for me to hear the pain in her sobbing. the pain i've wished she'd never have to experience. I've known her ten years, and never have i heard her cry like that...
SHE is my sister, my best friend and whatever it is that 's eating you, you need to be able to answer her questions because it is slowly eating her and she's only gone through three hours of this... you are probably feeling pain too. Confusion. Absolute mind numbing insanity. But please, for both of your sakes, be available to talk when she really needs it. And no that doesn't mean she is going to hound you or play sick puppy because you and i both know she's stronger than that and way too stubborn to fall at your feet. She will in her own time need to sort out and resolve issues. As will you.
Please be careful with my best friend, you've just killed a part of her that was amazing. And if she can resuscitate it herself, it will be even more amazing again one day...
So fuck up, you've broken my girl's heart. And unlike the other best friend, i'm the one who will be unbiased and watch. i'm there for you both. but let me make this one thing clear. do not under any circumstances convince yourself that just because you think it's okay to try to kiss her or call as per usual or expect to hang out, mean she does. you need to talk before the friendship can begin. you are something she needs to get over right now, NOT get under.
Don't make the easily made mistake of thinking that she is at ease with seeing you because you are at ease seeing her and it comforts you. she may convince herself it is better to be with you than without you, but the "in a relationship" status has been removed and here, there is no room for maybes...
be careful with her. don't use her, even if you don't mean to. it's hard, and it sucks. but watching her go through that while i'm almost at the end of this stage myself is driving me nuts. Nutsbecause i know there is nothing i can do to fix anything one way or another. Nuts because i know that this silly maybe, maybe not phase everyone goes through is completely fucking unnecessary. and fucking nuts because she blames herself...
Dear fuck up. You fucked up. but there's still time to amend it. give her a solid answer. if it's yes, tell her. if it's no, tell her. and give a "why" for each. don't say maybe and then think it's fine. because then you will have lost the friend you want to keep while she gets over the boyfriend you took away.
Love me
PS - i'm still here for you as a sounding board and a wall. i am not taking actions. you need to do that by yourself x