wasted weekend
mother fucker. so he never fucking called me. im so sick of this shit. i feel like im really done this time. im through with guys, they do nothing but make you wait by the phone and feel sad. and for what? a tiny dick and someone to say "well im done" and roll over. haha. cant ya tell im bitter? i mean okay there might be an explanation but i dont even care anymore. im just sad. whatever. i thought that i had finally met a nice boy. argh. oh well, no use in dwelling on it. especially when i am getting a tattoo this thursday and going to seattle this weekend and finals are almost over and its almost christmas! so blah to him. arrgh. whatever. i know that deep down im hurt and sad and frustrated. i think im gonna booty call matt sometime in the next week or two. (oh yeah, im sure that will solve ALL my problems...). i swear, i just go looking for trouble. oh yeah, and one of my friends just up and moved away. he didnt even tell anybody. and now hes in florida and im really sad. i mean he tried to call me and i was gonna call him after finals and everything, and then i just found out that he just...left. like, he told his bandmates THAT DAY. he was just like "okay well ive gotta go now im catching a plane to florida". how sad. and i feel terrible that i didnt call him back!