Sep 20, 2011 11:32
This is the final straw. It turns out I've come to a point in my life once again for a change. Only this time it feels different. I guess all that patience and growing has finally paid off. Making decisions to end a period of my life that has been long overdue.
It's crazy because the past seems like a faint whisper taunting me still, but untouchable thank the gods!
Trying to be more present in the moment, but cant wait for what's around the corner. It's nice knowing what I need to do now. Something that has never worked for me in the past is focusing energy on myself or others that dont appreciate. I need to redirect and devote myself to something else. Something that I've been doing all along but has been set aside for unhealthy distractions.
I'm trusting myself to do whats best for me, although it took a lot of time to get to this point but I sure feel a relief. At this point it feels like the calm before the storm only I have the tools to handle the storm when it comes this way.
So here I am living out of my van, anticipating whats next!
So much gratitude.
Love
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