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Looks like I'm officially sick! I felt really shitty for a while but today was a your not getting out of bed kind a day.
I read my book and took a long bath. Wish i could get a massage delivered to me.
I got a break from vancouver for a few days and went to Bellingham. I stayed in a cute little artisan pocket. I had a lot of fun. Learned about a thing called kaleidoscope yoga. essentially group yoga. Did some 5 rhythms dance. It was nice to feel like I was part of a little community. Eating communally is fun.
Working and keeping busy, but I have the traveling itch. I'm really craving a purpose (maybe to do some karma work) Well, soon I will be distributing food to the dtes. Looking forward to this :-)
I'm taking a course on cbt and it's really boring and depressing listening to people talk about why they are depressed. Working whenever I can at the yoga studio, and still cutting hair.
I'm feel like there's this weird stigma connected to vancouver. Maybe it's my subconsciously making myself not want to stick around van. It's hard to be around because the weather makes poeples mood so low. Vancouver will always be home, I guess its getting on my nerves a little. Also, maybe I'm just attracting the negativity. I definitely need to learn how to go out of my comfort zone....one step at a time. Just learning more and more how to enjoy being alone. Trying to shake the ick feeling, It deffinitly feels weird being so sober this time around. Luckily my nerves are somewhat calm. But it's hard not to think that I'm a total fuck up somedays. I've come to the a few realizations and maybe because I'm getting older. I'm learning to not put so much emphasis on things that are obviously out of my control or just plain irrational. I just dont care about trying to fix myself anymore. Although, it's wierd when I'm constantly second guessing myself. Bah whatever! I'm progressing that's all that matters.
I went out to see some electro gypsy swing last night. I dont think I've been out partying in van since janurary. It was awesome music by Dunkelbunt. The venue got so packed and sweaty. I spent most of the night socializing, which was fun.
I'm going to my aunts for dinner tomorrow, then maybe I can drag her to the orphans thanksgiving at pams :-)
I read my book and took a long bath. Wish i could get a massage delivered to me.
I got a break from vancouver for a few days and went to Bellingham. I stayed in a cute little artisan pocket. I had a lot of fun. Learned about a thing called kaleidoscope yoga. essentially group yoga. Did some 5 rhythms dance. It was nice to feel like I was part of a little community. Eating communally is fun.
Working and keeping busy, but I have the traveling itch. I'm really craving a purpose (maybe to do some karma work) Well, soon I will be distributing food to the dtes. Looking forward to this :-)
I'm taking a course on cbt and it's really boring and depressing listening to people talk about why they are depressed. Working whenever I can at the yoga studio, and still cutting hair.
I'm feel like there's this weird stigma connected to vancouver. Maybe it's my subconsciously making myself not want to stick around van. It's hard to be around because the weather makes poeples mood so low. Vancouver will always be home, I guess its getting on my nerves a little. Also, maybe I'm just attracting the negativity. I definitely need to learn how to go out of my comfort zone....one step at a time. Just learning more and more how to enjoy being alone. Trying to shake the ick feeling, It deffinitly feels weird being so sober this time around. Luckily my nerves are somewhat calm. But it's hard not to think that I'm a total fuck up somedays. I've come to the a few realizations and maybe because I'm getting older. I'm learning to not put so much emphasis on things that are obviously out of my control or just plain irrational. I just dont care about trying to fix myself anymore. Although, it's wierd when I'm constantly second guessing myself. Bah whatever! I'm progressing that's all that matters.
I went out to see some electro gypsy swing last night. I dont think I've been out partying in van since janurary. It was awesome music by Dunkelbunt. The venue got so packed and sweaty. I spent most of the night socializing, which was fun.
I'm going to my aunts for dinner tomorrow, then maybe I can drag her to the orphans thanksgiving at pams :-)