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im back at work today. i might go home early though. luckilly no one is really asking why i was out. i think it might be because people dont really know my hours. my boss asked if i wanted to talk about anything but when i said: "no, not really", she totally respectfully left me alone.
i had my first dream about dave last night: i was actually marrying this other guy we know named david (david packard) who is a friend of dave's. so i was all dressed in my wedding gown and i grab david packard and i pull him into a room and tell him that i love him but i'm not in love with him; im in love with david askay. so he gets all upset and starts crying and i run out of the room and out of the church (yeah i know) and find dave in this van that he jumps out of and comes running over to me. i told him that i just could do it, i couldnt go through with it because i was still in love with him. he said he loved me too and we got into this van and i was kissing his face and stuff and he started saying stuff like: "but i just don't know", "i'm not sure", etc. i just kept saying "thats ok" and "i'm sure".
then i woke up with my bite guard jammed againist my back teeth and it hurt like a bitch! that means i was grinding my teeth alot in my sleep. at first i felt really good after my dream and now it just makes me want to cry (which i havent done so far today, almost, but not yet). it just felt so real...
i guess i can expect many more dreams like that. fuck...
i had my first dream about dave last night: i was actually marrying this other guy we know named david (david packard) who is a friend of dave's. so i was all dressed in my wedding gown and i grab david packard and i pull him into a room and tell him that i love him but i'm not in love with him; im in love with david askay. so he gets all upset and starts crying and i run out of the room and out of the church (yeah i know) and find dave in this van that he jumps out of and comes running over to me. i told him that i just could do it, i couldnt go through with it because i was still in love with him. he said he loved me too and we got into this van and i was kissing his face and stuff and he started saying stuff like: "but i just don't know", "i'm not sure", etc. i just kept saying "thats ok" and "i'm sure".
then i woke up with my bite guard jammed againist my back teeth and it hurt like a bitch! that means i was grinding my teeth alot in my sleep. at first i felt really good after my dream and now it just makes me want to cry (which i havent done so far today, almost, but not yet). it just felt so real...
i guess i can expect many more dreams like that. fuck...