To Believe or Not Believe, that is the Question
Been awhile since I last posted something, anything, on my LJ. Sometimes I feel as if my time is very limited thru out the day. Between kids, parent's, work and everything in between. Moment like this, is when I wish I was like the Calgon Commercial where their logo is "Calgon, Take Me Away." If I thought there was any truth in that matter, I would had purchased a whole case of that stuff.Unfortunately, I have to keep on going, No one else can carry the load. Therefore why complain.
Several weeks ago, I took Michelle to see her primary Doctor, So that he may confirm if my baby has Cancer. Turn out that he does'nt believe she has Cancer, However he does believe that her situation is due to stress and also Asthma in which Medication (Pump) was prescribed to her. The thought of this news was a weight lifted off my shoulder. Than again Prayers were heard and lifted into heaven. In my journey I have encounter People who don't actually believe in prayers. My answer to them is, if one does not truly believe then what do you have to hold on? Where's you're faith? With out Faith there be nothing to hold on too. No hope. No inner strenght to carry us thru our stormy weather. The energy level one feels when we actually humble ourselves. Close our eyes in the midst of silence and focus on one thought. Feeling our spirit fly to the highest mountain. Glide thru the clouds. Letting our emotions, feelings flow freely. Were tears cleanse our soul. Yet it must be done truly believing that our prayers are heard from above. Accepting the out come of what may be. Weather it's good or bad. Therefore, I can only say, that no matter how hard things might be. I can never loose focus on the great blessing my life has been thru and going thru. Knowing in my heart there's more blessing that I will continue to encounter in my life. So if it means that i will endure several latches thru stormy weather, where the so call hurricanes, earth shattering earthquake's, blizzard's, Tornado's, what ever the out come, I will face them all,Till the sun shines for me and has me smiling again. Believing in my heart that my faith will see me thru them all. Standing on a solid foundation and able to conquer what every comes my way. For my faith in God, is enormous and i will fear no evil. I'm not saying that i'm a strong woman, course i do crumble just like the next person. However, Faith is what i hold on too and no matter how many tears i shed, no matter how many heartbreak i feel, deep down in my heart i embrace my faith to see me thru the darkest moments in my life. It's where i'm able to gather my strenght giving me a reason to believe again.
My little girl Ashlee, is still experiencing hearing lost on her right ear. The medication in which the Doctor recommend, Did'nt work. I've notice that she beginning to read lips, she's able to look at you and no matter how softly you speak, she's able to understand by the words one form on their lips. However if i look away, while talking to her, she can't hear me very well. Which is why i need to remember to always face her, while talking to her so that she does'nt miss a thing. Yesterday was her last day in cheering for the Tiny Tots football team. I was sooooo very proud of her, watching her from the stand, seeing her cheer on the field. She manage to learned every cheer there was. Now her next time cheering will be for the basketball team. Which will be next week. She takes so much pride in cheering. *smiles*
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Several weeks ago, I took Michelle to see her primary Doctor, So that he may confirm if my baby has Cancer. Turn out that he does'nt believe she has Cancer, However he does believe that her situation is due to stress and also Asthma in which Medication (Pump) was prescribed to her. The thought of this news was a weight lifted off my shoulder. Than again Prayers were heard and lifted into heaven. In my journey I have encounter People who don't actually believe in prayers. My answer to them is, if one does not truly believe then what do you have to hold on? Where's you're faith? With out Faith there be nothing to hold on too. No hope. No inner strenght to carry us thru our stormy weather. The energy level one feels when we actually humble ourselves. Close our eyes in the midst of silence and focus on one thought. Feeling our spirit fly to the highest mountain. Glide thru the clouds. Letting our emotions, feelings flow freely. Were tears cleanse our soul. Yet it must be done truly believing that our prayers are heard from above. Accepting the out come of what may be. Weather it's good or bad. Therefore, I can only say, that no matter how hard things might be. I can never loose focus on the great blessing my life has been thru and going thru. Knowing in my heart there's more blessing that I will continue to encounter in my life. So if it means that i will endure several latches thru stormy weather, where the so call hurricanes, earth shattering earthquake's, blizzard's, Tornado's, what ever the out come, I will face them all,Till the sun shines for me and has me smiling again. Believing in my heart that my faith will see me thru them all. Standing on a solid foundation and able to conquer what every comes my way. For my faith in God, is enormous and i will fear no evil. I'm not saying that i'm a strong woman, course i do crumble just like the next person. However, Faith is what i hold on too and no matter how many tears i shed, no matter how many heartbreak i feel, deep down in my heart i embrace my faith to see me thru the darkest moments in my life. It's where i'm able to gather my strenght giving me a reason to believe again.
My little girl Ashlee, is still experiencing hearing lost on her right ear. The medication in which the Doctor recommend, Did'nt work. I've notice that she beginning to read lips, she's able to look at you and no matter how softly you speak, she's able to understand by the words one form on their lips. However if i look away, while talking to her, she can't hear me very well. Which is why i need to remember to always face her, while talking to her so that she does'nt miss a thing. Yesterday was her last day in cheering for the Tiny Tots football team. I was sooooo very proud of her, watching her from the stand, seeing her cheer on the field. She manage to learned every cheer there was. Now her next time cheering will be for the basketball team. Which will be next week. She takes so much pride in cheering. *smiles*
I thought I would place this link here...Take the Humanmetrics test and see your results:
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp