:o)

[lovingursmiles]

After having a long talk with my dad the other day, and a long talk with ryan last night..I finally got alot out and threw some things on the table..things that I need to change about myself

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[buddyzcowgurl]

you go girl! =o) your awesome!

hey and i kno what you mean the sean/ryan thing... i have a mike/josh thing... that whole trust issue, not working so well.. its so hard isnt it? even tho you KNO they arent going to do anything to break it, still... its just hard... but your awesome you will be great! <3<3

[lovingursmiles]

I know deep inside I do trust ryan because hes the most awesome person I have ever met in the entire world..when he says he loves me and will never leave...he means it and for the first time in my whole life I believe him. But knowing how much i love ryan, the thought of losing him sometimes covers up how I actually feel and thats when the stupid thoughts come out. But ive been doing better I just ahve to keep working on it.
Your awesome toooo! :o)

[original_brew]

you are so amazing. takes someone very strong to want to change :)

[lovingursmiles]

aw thank you hunni aka happily married woman!....I know that i can do this, but it will take some time....But its for the better!!