Grr...
It's 5:45! And I'm awake! I'm so mad...I woke up at like 5:15 and I looked at my clock real quick and I thought it said 6:15, so I got up and cut off my alarm, which was supposed to go off at 6:20...so I cut it off b/c I hate how it sounds, and I figured I'd just get up on my own now that I already woke up...so I went back to sleep for a few minutes, then woke up again, saw "38" on the clock, and got out of the bed and went and did my stuff in the bathroom...and I just noticed that no lights are on downstairs...and when I went in my room I saw why! GRR!! I am NOT supposed to be up this early! Please don't let this be how my whole day is going to go...blaaaahhh...
But yeah while I'm up I might as well do a real update...after all, there's nothing better to do! So yeah softball went a little better on Monday (we had pictures yesterday so we didnt practice) and I'm starting to get excited about our games next week. I just MIGHT get to play! Haha go figure right.
But then yesterday...I don't know...it just wasn't a good day. It started off all fine and good, but then it just kept getting worse and worse. And I don't even know why! It was just NOT GOOD...and then last night I was just like GRR and Trey really made me mad and so I was really mean to him but he didn't do anything wrong...well I mean not anything for me to be THAT mean. I love him...only he would up with all the crap I give him sometimes. And then of course there was someone else...someone I was trying to help, and tryin to tell them how great they are and make them understand they're not a screw-up...and what do I get? I get that person being extremely rude to me...so you know what? All I want is for everyone else to be happy...but if me trying to help people be happy gets me HERE...where I am right now, feeling dumb and used and not wanted, then you know what? Screw everyone else...its gonna be about me. I'll make myself happy and that's all that'll matter. Yeah see that would be a good plan, if I could actually do it. But if I could, I wouldn't be sittin here right now worrying about everyone else, would I? Nope...sure wouldn't. So it looks like this is how its going to be...I guess the only thing to do is make the best of it. I just want people to be happy!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!
PS-There was one good thing about last night...Jen wants to go see Kenny Chesney! Yay Jen! :-D
But yeah while I'm up I might as well do a real update...after all, there's nothing better to do! So yeah softball went a little better on Monday (we had pictures yesterday so we didnt practice) and I'm starting to get excited about our games next week. I just MIGHT get to play! Haha go figure right.
But then yesterday...I don't know...it just wasn't a good day. It started off all fine and good, but then it just kept getting worse and worse. And I don't even know why! It was just NOT GOOD...and then last night I was just like GRR and Trey really made me mad and so I was really mean to him but he didn't do anything wrong...well I mean not anything for me to be THAT mean. I love him...only he would up with all the crap I give him sometimes. And then of course there was someone else...someone I was trying to help, and tryin to tell them how great they are and make them understand they're not a screw-up...and what do I get? I get that person being extremely rude to me...so you know what? All I want is for everyone else to be happy...but if me trying to help people be happy gets me HERE...where I am right now, feeling dumb and used and not wanted, then you know what? Screw everyone else...its gonna be about me. I'll make myself happy and that's all that'll matter. Yeah see that would be a good plan, if I could actually do it. But if I could, I wouldn't be sittin here right now worrying about everyone else, would I? Nope...sure wouldn't. So it looks like this is how its going to be...I guess the only thing to do is make the best of it. I just want people to be happy!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!
PS-There was one good thing about last night...Jen wants to go see Kenny Chesney! Yay Jen! :-D