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[lovinglife04]

I want someone to love me
I wish everyone could know
Who I am, who I could be
But first he has to go.

His memory lives in my heart
It's ruining my chance
To live my life the way I should
And know that life's a dance.

I say it's done, I'm over him
But still he owns my soul
For no one else can fill his place
It's he who makes me whole.

I felt love in his kisses
I shivered at his touch
I couldn't handle how I felt
My emotions were too much.

The way he said "I love you"
The tender passion of his kiss
The way he smiled that goofy smile
There's so much that I miss.

How can I mean nothing
After so much that we shared
We could have been so perfect
If I hadn't been so scared.

My heart raced when I saw him
And I knew my love was real
But I thought too much and analyzed
And tried to make a deal.

So we made plans for "when it's right"
I thought that they'd work out
But now he's gone, and I'm alone
Me thoughts are drowned with doubt.

I love him still, with all my heart
But I have to let him go
He'll come back if it's meant to be
And only time can know.