with hearts that were bound & gagged; + a merlin & morgana mix
It has been a while since I last updated, and today I bring treats! Merlin treats to be specific. I don’t know how much I really highlight it on my LJ, but if you didn’t know, I LOVE MERLIN & MORGANA. They are everything wonderful about a dark, angsty, tragic pairing. At the start they were friends, close friends. They both had sweet, kind hearts. They would have done anything for each other. He was the one person she trusted with her deepest secret in a place where if the wrong person were to find out it would mean death, and when some misguided decisions (of epic proportions) pulled them apart it set them on the path to a destiny we all knew was eminent. They are utterly tragic. I throw this word around with my ships I a lot, and I LOVE a good tragic ship (obviously) but these two are different from the others in the fact that they have been so scarred by mistakes, and lies, and betrayal that it has ripped them apart over a long distance. This is what makes them so tragic; the fact that through decisions they've both made they've been turned against each other, however, in the midst of all of the issues, they have this undeniable connection, an affection that still bubbles underneath, and a "joined future." Really, they are one of a kind for me, and I ADORE their story and all of its darkness and angst and utter UST.
SO, in lieu of that fact, I bring my Merlin/Morgana mix!! As with all of my mixes, I had been building this up in my mind over time, and it wasn’t until this week, when izbetterthanu and I started our massive fangirl session about these two that I got the inspiration to finish it up, so this one goes out to Joy, my #1 Mergana shipper. It’s based mainly around where M/M are at in their relationship now starting with the events of last season in 2.12, and like Mergana contains copious amounts of angst and UST. ;)
And as always my dear f-listers, even if you don’t watch the show, I hope you find something here you might like! :D
about.
she is the darkness to your light, the hatred to your love;;
The Witch & The Warlock -- bound together by destiny. Where one path once ran seamlessly, it diverged into two when the flavor of hemlock planted the seed of guilt in his heart, and sliding effortlessly down, withered her trust, giving blossom to betrayal within her breast. Now they are two paths, one destiny, inextricably intertwined though their directions are opposing. Good versus Evil, maybe, but perhaps it’s not quite that simple. Perhaps it’s a place where trust meets deception, truth is seduced by lies, love collides with hate, and betrayal sings friendship’s lament. Physics 101: Two particles of opposite charges attract each other; so positive and negative lock eyes across the room, and walking to the middle of the floor, they meet in a dance of attraction, the space between them creating the friction, which ultimately leads to the spark, which in turn gives way to full blown flame. And when she sees his pleading eyes, (“No, you don’t mean that."), maybe it’s more than just her anger and resentment towards him, and when he hears her accusations ("I don't understand how anyone would want to hurt their friends." “No, you just poison them."), maybe it’s more than the sting of his guilt and shame in what’s he’s done to her. Maybe, it’s a sigh for what was lost, who they were; a flood of memories of what could have been, what could still be, if only in the farthest reaches of their hearts. Because he still understands what it’s like to be an outcast, she still knows him, they are still bound by their gift of magic, and sometimes the thing we feel we most despise we can’t help but be drawn to; reminded of what could be. ‘If onlys,’ ‘What ifs,’ and ‘Whys’ flood the mind because that flicker of affection still burns, and it is only those who we love most that inspire the deepest intensity of feeling to hate, to love, to forgive, to provide the means of becoming the darkest of night or the lightest of day.
This collection of songs hopes to inspire this idea so prominent between Merlin and Morgana. To study the results when dark and light become completely entangled. Nothing is black and white, everything is tinted gray. Both musically and lyrically this mix is pretty dark as a whole, both in regards to the rift currently between them, and the affection that still burns under the skin, fit to highlight the standing of Merlin and Morgana’s relationship in Series 3, starting with the events of 2.12. The lyrics of the songs often highlight a one or more of a few main ideas: the tragedy of a relationship lost or unattained due to a fracture between the participants involved; some cover the utter darkness contained within betrayal and deception, the feeling of regret, and others emphasize the simple attraction and need of the person in question regardless of the circumstances that have come between them in the past, because of a connection that runs so deeply; loving in spite of hate that seems to burn so prominent, and feeling that the one thing you need the most is the one thing you should most resent. It’s the push and pull -- light still finding love in that which is dark and dark still feeling love for that which is light, and the hope that just might be contained therein, that amongst the secrets there may be one day be hushed confessions.
illuminated. hurts;
Swim with your sorrows,
And try delusion for a while,
It's such a beautiful lie.
You gotta lose inhibition.
Romance your ego for a while,
Come on give it a try.
get up. barcelona;
Crawling on the ash, she's pitiful.
She's lost her sense of light,
She has to hold my hand.
collide. pilot speed;
You'd sell your secrets to me for a price, for a price.
You run your blade right through me, my fear dies, leaving yours alive.
And though your lips pursue me, in the shadow of your eyes,
Love and fear collide.
lost year. mutemath;
Nothing's a breeze,
We suffer, we bleed, for two hearts to beat as one.
We learn as we go, at least now we know
Something we can't become.
cherry tree. the national;
Take us down and all apart, cherry tree;
Lay us out on the table.
You're sharp alright.
Loose lips sink ships...
sweet devil. susanna & the magical orchestra;
Sweet devil lives across the street,
He waves at me in daytime
From behind the curtains.
At nighttime he comes out,
To seduce me in the dark,
Playing his guitar.
bleed together. lovedrug;
You got it wrong, this isn't right,
There's something beautiful that totally died.
This stupid song, my popularity;
I see my misery and it looks fine.
jilted lovers. the naked & famous;
Jilted lover, sleeping in the unrest,
How do we survive to make amends?
Fight the lies. Voices in my head multiply;
I am such a mess.
piece by piece and frame by frame. deer tick;
And the tears would come with the cold, cold rain;
And I know for sure that I succumb to the pain.
And I'd love to tear apart your name
Piece by piece, frame by frame.
forget her. jeff buckley;
Oh my tears are falling down as I try to forget,
Her love was a joke from the day that we met.
All of the words, all of the men,
All of my pain when I think back to when;
Remember her hair as it shone in the sun,
The smell of the bed when I knew what she'd done.
Tell yourself over and over you won't ever need her again.
a sea chanty of sorts. margot & the nuclear so and so's
And if you love well that should be enough,
Instead it turns your joy into sorrow.
And I can't breathe with the dust of retreat.
I'm choking on the fumes of my wayward back.
signs. bloc party;
I see signs now all the time
That you're not dead you're sleeping.
I believe in anything that brings you back home to me.
obstacle 1. interpol;
It's in the way that she poses,
It's in the things that she puts in my head.
Her stories are boring and stuff,
She's always calling my bluff.
She puts the weights into my little heart,
And she gets in my room and she takes it apart.
the wrestle. frightened rabbit;
My enemy please stay close to me,
I've no breath left, you cold breath thief.
The last gasp with a burst lung,
The fight fathers a weak son.
The last taste of salt in my mouth,
My skin breaks, with no sound.
I'm torn limb from limb.
There is bone, there is gristle and spit
in the clotheless wrestle with the clotheless animal.
hang me up to dry. cold war kids;
All mixed up in the wash,
Hot water bleeding our colors.
Now hang me up to dry;
You wrung me out
too, too, too many times.
blue veins. the raconteurs;
You always were the first one to believe me
When I said to you girl, I think it's gonna rain.
(But I could be wrong.)
Yeah, but all of these things,
All these things,
They're all truly nice but ain't nothing, ain't nothing
Compared to the love that's running through your little blue veins.
cascades. horse feathers;
And there's a mess that she made.
We kiss on the mouth with hearts that were bound and gagged.
The news was broke the witness was the Cascades.
Do you remember me?
'Cause there's a piece of my mind in a field of dandelions.
Do you remember me?
'Cause there's a tale I tell,
It's made of rain and hell.
dancing on our graves. paper route;
I know the man I am is not who I should be.
The Devil takes my hand says, "Child come with me."
My body shivers and aches. I can't break free.
Why do the things I hate come so naturally?
let it die. foo fighters;
A heart of gold
But it lost it's pride;
Beautiful veins
And bloodshot eyes.
I see your face
In another light.
Why'd you have to go
And let it die?
the wolves (act i & ii). bon iver;
Someday my pain, someday my pain
Will mark you.
Harness your blame, harness your blame
And walk through.
With the wild wolves around you;
In the morning, I'll call you,
Send it farther on.
Solace my game, solace my game
It stars you.
Swing wide your crane, swing wide your crane
And run me through.
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