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Suddenly I am overwhelmed with
TWO MILLION flooding emotions.

It is me and Alyssas one year anniversary.
We have been friends for an entire year.
To the very day. We use to celebrate it
month by month.
Gifts and sleepovers.
Days where we were the only two people in the world.
The day weve been waiting for
for so long.
We had BIG plans.
And we almost forgot.
And we arent together.
Grasping onto our friendship.
WOW.
I have to make it up to her.
its too late to do anything.
But next weekend.
Sometime.
Ill make it up to her somehow.
I feel
so
so
lost.
Crying.

ghshsghsdgkhghgkjshdg. I just read Tessas livejournal.
She made me sound like the most terrible person.
She said I am constantly patronizing her and putting her down.
PUTTING HER DOWN?
THAT IS THE LAST THING IN THE ENTIRE WORLD I DO TO HER.
THE ONLY REASON I DISLIKE MONIQUE IS BECAUSE SHE
IS CONSTANTLY CONTEMPTOUS OF TESSA AND PUTTING HER DOWN.
Not ME.
I love her so fucking much and i think she deserves
the world. Thats why I want to shield her.
God. Im crying.

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