Oooney Nahni Booshkanani.
Our place.
Yesterday me and Delanie went on an adventure.
We pranced past million dollar Sand Canyon houses.
And happened apon the prettiest, most peaceful looking
place. It was so nice.
And we played there and took pictures.
We decided it was our place.
But we arent telling anyone what it looks like
or where it is.
But it was BEAUTIFUL.
Like a picture.
Ah. I just loved it.
ANYWAY, Friday was wet.
Raining so hard.
The rain always gets me shaky.
It's so intimadating.
But Tessa told me,
Consider the rain life.
It's Life.
It's Living.
Thats truth.
Everyone huttles together under
the awning of the cafeteria.
Some have maanged to stay dry,
others are soaking.
Its a cold, happy mangle of bodys and
backpacks.
It's... interesting.
reform myself.
New goal=
Improve body.
New Clothes.
Hair cut.
Stay positive.
Its not that things are all that bad
or anything, its just I feel like
I need to add a little something.
I need a project. I need to make an impact.
And i need to stay composed.
Just for now.
Schools almost over. That's really
really scary. Summer changes everything.
I'm scared.
I suppose I'm upset right now.
For no jusitfiable reason.
I dont have any plans right now.
But I dont really mind.
Im going shopping tommorrow.
Today I BREATHE.
Tessa. jfhskhskdhgkasdghksfghjg.
I dont KNOWWW. I dont know what to say.
Sometimes, my urge to protect her
is overwhelming in the sense that I cant.
I cant convince her out of mistakes.
I cant be there to hold her and hug her
and tell her its going to be okay
when things go wrong.
Then theres other people.
Other people CAN do that.
And it scares me. Because
eventually there will be someone
who means alot more to her, than I do.
And someone who is more interesting,
more spontaneous, And who she can actually see often.
And then Im nothing.
Delanie. I love her.
And her family is so inspirational.
I adore being with her and at her house.
and im glad we are as close as ever pretty much.
Chelsea. Its sold.
I cant believe it.
Wow.
We talked about it,
before we knew for sure.
And I calmed down and it felt
so settled. Like it was going to be okay.
And the scary feelings are coming back.
Like youre going to slip away.
And I'm worried.
Talk to me. I want someone to tell me something.
Yesterday me and Delanie went on an adventure.
We pranced past million dollar Sand Canyon houses.
And happened apon the prettiest, most peaceful looking
place. It was so nice.
And we played there and took pictures.
We decided it was our place.
But we arent telling anyone what it looks like
or where it is.
But it was BEAUTIFUL.
Like a picture.
Ah. I just loved it.
ANYWAY, Friday was wet.
Raining so hard.
The rain always gets me shaky.
It's so intimadating.
But Tessa told me,
Consider the rain life.
It's Life.
It's Living.
Thats truth.
Everyone huttles together under
the awning of the cafeteria.
Some have maanged to stay dry,
others are soaking.
Its a cold, happy mangle of bodys and
backpacks.
It's... interesting.
reform myself.
New goal=
Improve body.
New Clothes.
Hair cut.
Stay positive.
Its not that things are all that bad
or anything, its just I feel like
I need to add a little something.
I need a project. I need to make an impact.
And i need to stay composed.
Just for now.
Schools almost over. That's really
really scary. Summer changes everything.
I'm scared.
I suppose I'm upset right now.
For no jusitfiable reason.
I dont have any plans right now.
But I dont really mind.
Im going shopping tommorrow.
Today I BREATHE.
Tessa. jfhskhskdhgkasdghksfghjg.
I dont KNOWWW. I dont know what to say.
Sometimes, my urge to protect her
is overwhelming in the sense that I cant.
I cant convince her out of mistakes.
I cant be there to hold her and hug her
and tell her its going to be okay
when things go wrong.
Then theres other people.
Other people CAN do that.
And it scares me. Because
eventually there will be someone
who means alot more to her, than I do.
And someone who is more interesting,
more spontaneous, And who she can actually see often.
And then Im nothing.
Delanie. I love her.
And her family is so inspirational.
I adore being with her and at her house.
and im glad we are as close as ever pretty much.
Chelsea. Its sold.
I cant believe it.
Wow.
We talked about it,
before we knew for sure.
And I calmed down and it felt
so settled. Like it was going to be okay.
And the scary feelings are coming back.
Like youre going to slip away.
And I'm worried.
Talk to me. I want someone to tell me something.