lots of shit on my mind
i got a lot of stuff on my mind i guess u could say.
first off... stuff w/ 'liking' people. shannon started texting me friday and ever since then all i wanna do is talk to her. i went to visit her at work today and she looked so cute. i love how her hair is, she looked so good w/ it. i don't care who reads this anymore, yeah i like gurls. i like guys a lot more often, but i like gurls sometimes too... especially this one. i can't even really figure out exactly why... i just do. it wasn't like when i saw her it was like WOO HOOO even b/c i was nervous and she is kinda quiet anyways, but i liked sitting talking to her for the little while that we did. and she did the cutest thing last nite... she came up to my work, but thought i still had my car so she left, but she had written a note that said i hope u feel better and have a good nite (something along those lines) love, shannon. and i was like awww when she told me, cuz i did see her jeep there but i had forgotten what it looked like til she reminded me. no, i dont think she does these things to flirt, i think she is just a nice person... but it makes me like her more. iunno, im not expecting things, cuz we don't really know eachother too much, but yeah, u know. so im not saying im like OHHH GAWWD I LIKE SHANNON, im just saying, i eventually could, u see? heh.
THEN theres the 'love square' w/ me danielle kyle and MIKE. duuude he is hot. and i KINDA like him. hes a nice guy and hes hot, anyways... if u know me, u know the love square, a bit of a mess, kyle is supposed to bring mike to see me at work tomorrow nite, so we'll see what happens w/ that....
and while writing that i was thinking about how i like shannon, not mike. she's an all around good person... while he is sketchy.
anyways... on to other stuff... SOFTBALL. im fucking sick of it. i feel like everytime i go im wasting more of my life away. which then makes me think about fieldhockey in the fall. and how much i DON'T wanna play it. but i feel so much pressure to play. yeah, i suppose im good at it, but i hate running, and is it worth going there for 15 hours a week for 2 hours a week(games) of fun? for some reason i wanna say no. OF COURSE we all know ill play, im just saying that i wish it was easy not to. bak to softball... no one on the team really WANTS to be there. we all always just wanna leave. yes i LOVE the sport, but that doesn't change the fact that i feel like this team is a waste of time. its over in about 4 weeks or less... so that isn't TOO bad. ill be happy when its done w/.
school has also become a sickening waste of time, i wanna do ONE THING, just ONE, that has anything to do w/ ANYTHING that could be useful. but as i always here 'this is the best time of ur life so enjoy it' so i will. i mean i am DEFINENTLY pretty sorta kinda happy right now. i wish i had someone but other then that things are good. at least i have a lot of great friends now. and i love them all to death. especially char, gaby, lizzy, kyle, and robert. those kids ROCK MY WORLD.
anyways... im content on life... so im gonna go talk to people now.
first off... stuff w/ 'liking' people. shannon started texting me friday and ever since then all i wanna do is talk to her. i went to visit her at work today and she looked so cute. i love how her hair is, she looked so good w/ it. i don't care who reads this anymore, yeah i like gurls. i like guys a lot more often, but i like gurls sometimes too... especially this one. i can't even really figure out exactly why... i just do. it wasn't like when i saw her it was like WOO HOOO even b/c i was nervous and she is kinda quiet anyways, but i liked sitting talking to her for the little while that we did. and she did the cutest thing last nite... she came up to my work, but thought i still had my car so she left, but she had written a note that said i hope u feel better and have a good nite (something along those lines) love, shannon. and i was like awww when she told me, cuz i did see her jeep there but i had forgotten what it looked like til she reminded me. no, i dont think she does these things to flirt, i think she is just a nice person... but it makes me like her more. iunno, im not expecting things, cuz we don't really know eachother too much, but yeah, u know. so im not saying im like OHHH GAWWD I LIKE SHANNON, im just saying, i eventually could, u see? heh.
THEN theres the 'love square' w/ me danielle kyle and MIKE. duuude he is hot. and i KINDA like him. hes a nice guy and hes hot, anyways... if u know me, u know the love square, a bit of a mess, kyle is supposed to bring mike to see me at work tomorrow nite, so we'll see what happens w/ that....
and while writing that i was thinking about how i like shannon, not mike. she's an all around good person... while he is sketchy.
anyways... on to other stuff... SOFTBALL. im fucking sick of it. i feel like everytime i go im wasting more of my life away. which then makes me think about fieldhockey in the fall. and how much i DON'T wanna play it. but i feel so much pressure to play. yeah, i suppose im good at it, but i hate running, and is it worth going there for 15 hours a week for 2 hours a week(games) of fun? for some reason i wanna say no. OF COURSE we all know ill play, im just saying that i wish it was easy not to. bak to softball... no one on the team really WANTS to be there. we all always just wanna leave. yes i LOVE the sport, but that doesn't change the fact that i feel like this team is a waste of time. its over in about 4 weeks or less... so that isn't TOO bad. ill be happy when its done w/.
school has also become a sickening waste of time, i wanna do ONE THING, just ONE, that has anything to do w/ ANYTHING that could be useful. but as i always here 'this is the best time of ur life so enjoy it' so i will. i mean i am DEFINENTLY pretty sorta kinda happy right now. i wish i had someone but other then that things are good. at least i have a lot of great friends now. and i love them all to death. especially char, gaby, lizzy, kyle, and robert. those kids ROCK MY WORLD.
anyways... im content on life... so im gonna go talk to people now.