sorry about all of this today.
4 days.
hey guys, just wanted to quickly say sorry if i was a bit more bitchy than usual today.
it's nothing any of you did.
well here's the story, cause i'm already tired of explaining.
...
as most of you know, my little brother moved up to New Jersey last July with his dad.
well yeah, we thought it would help him because of the whole 'daddy in his life thing'
cause before he left he had attempted to kill me several times, nothing new, you all knew that.
his dad is a very messed up human being. there's just a lot about that man i don't understand. he's got problems.
well we get a call today from his aunt, who lives here in florida, telling us that his dad is basically kidnapping Josh and holding him hostage. it was like someone picked up my house and turned it upside down. my mom went to Josh's aunts and talked to Josh's dad, he was basically being a total asshole telling my mom 'oh you're never going to see him again' this and that. but he eventually agreed to let Josh go back to his house and stay there.
so my mom came home and immediately got Josh a flight home, costed a total of $486 but it's worth it. this is the safety of my little brother we're talking about. so yeah, he will be home tomorrow.
what completely sucks is that we're still remodeling the house and haven't even started on Josh's room ... seeing as we weren't expecting him home until late July.
but yeah, we'll get through it.
at first i was pissed he was coming home early, cause when he came home for christmas it didn't seem like he had changed at all ... but i guess i kinda got over that.
and i guess i'm just going to have to make this a new start for us. i know i'll never be able to forget the things he's done to me in the past, but i guess i've gotta forgive it and kinda say 'lessons learned' and hope that he has grown up a little bit.
i mean, i know he's only 10, so of course we're going to have little sibling arguments ... but hopefully nothing major will happen again. and i'm just trying my absolute hardest to think positively about the entire situation.
... maybe this is one of those tests i'm being put through that are just going to make me stronger, one of those things i need to worry more about than other things ... it kills me to say it but, i think i'm going to try and focus more on getting closer with my family. i've realized that, in the end, they'll be there when no one else is, and as much as i've tried to rebell against them for various reasons, both good and bad reasons, i think this is what's best right now and for the future. i'm just really tired of that same feeling like i'm drowning in my own life, like i've got no control ... and i'm more than ready to do something about it. this is the first step i'm going to make in getting my life back on track, and if you're really a friend of mine, you'll understand all of this and be behind me every step of the way. part of this whole thing i've decided to do in order to get my life back on track is to sort out the ones i need in my life, from the ones i don't need. and it's your choice to be in my life or not, it's all in your actions ...
so yeah, just to inform you guys.
goodnight. <3
on another note, i did not put this entry in here for you guys to leave little 'oh i'm sorry' comments. i'm not asking for anyone's sympahy, it's really not needed or appreciated. the only reason i took time to write this is because i felt kinda bad after realizing how bitchy i was to some of you today.
hey guys, just wanted to quickly say sorry if i was a bit more bitchy than usual today.
it's nothing any of you did.
well here's the story, cause i'm already tired of explaining.
...
as most of you know, my little brother moved up to New Jersey last July with his dad.
well yeah, we thought it would help him because of the whole 'daddy in his life thing'
cause before he left he had attempted to kill me several times, nothing new, you all knew that.
his dad is a very messed up human being. there's just a lot about that man i don't understand. he's got problems.
well we get a call today from his aunt, who lives here in florida, telling us that his dad is basically kidnapping Josh and holding him hostage. it was like someone picked up my house and turned it upside down. my mom went to Josh's aunts and talked to Josh's dad, he was basically being a total asshole telling my mom 'oh you're never going to see him again' this and that. but he eventually agreed to let Josh go back to his house and stay there.
so my mom came home and immediately got Josh a flight home, costed a total of $486 but it's worth it. this is the safety of my little brother we're talking about. so yeah, he will be home tomorrow.
what completely sucks is that we're still remodeling the house and haven't even started on Josh's room ... seeing as we weren't expecting him home until late July.
but yeah, we'll get through it.
at first i was pissed he was coming home early, cause when he came home for christmas it didn't seem like he had changed at all ... but i guess i kinda got over that.
and i guess i'm just going to have to make this a new start for us. i know i'll never be able to forget the things he's done to me in the past, but i guess i've gotta forgive it and kinda say 'lessons learned' and hope that he has grown up a little bit.
i mean, i know he's only 10, so of course we're going to have little sibling arguments ... but hopefully nothing major will happen again. and i'm just trying my absolute hardest to think positively about the entire situation.
... maybe this is one of those tests i'm being put through that are just going to make me stronger, one of those things i need to worry more about than other things ... it kills me to say it but, i think i'm going to try and focus more on getting closer with my family. i've realized that, in the end, they'll be there when no one else is, and as much as i've tried to rebell against them for various reasons, both good and bad reasons, i think this is what's best right now and for the future. i'm just really tired of that same feeling like i'm drowning in my own life, like i've got no control ... and i'm more than ready to do something about it. this is the first step i'm going to make in getting my life back on track, and if you're really a friend of mine, you'll understand all of this and be behind me every step of the way. part of this whole thing i've decided to do in order to get my life back on track is to sort out the ones i need in my life, from the ones i don't need. and it's your choice to be in my life or not, it's all in your actions ...
so yeah, just to inform you guys.
goodnight. <3
on another note, i did not put this entry in here for you guys to leave little 'oh i'm sorry' comments. i'm not asking for anyone's sympahy, it's really not needed or appreciated. the only reason i took time to write this is because i felt kinda bad after realizing how bitchy i was to some of you today.