wow, reality check much? yes, i think so.
3 days.
so thoughts like that had crossed my mind before but i never really paid attention to it, just sorta blew it all off.
but Carson's entry got me thinking about it a lot tonight. and as i told him, most of the stuff i worry about is nothing but useless drama that isn't really going to get me anywhere. and i won't go into detail about all of that right now. just know that there's going to be a new ashlee, and it could be good for you or not so good for you. but for me, it's definitely whats best ... cause it's totally me.
no more of this fake, put on to make everyone happy stuff. it's taken me quite a while to realize that this needs to happen, and i can't thank Carson enough for helping me realize that. it's time for me to start thinking about my life, where it's going, how and what i need to change and if this is where i want to be in my life. this has been a long time coming and it finally has ... and i'm glad. but yeah, once i get all this figured out there will more than likely be another long, detailed, drawn out, to the point entry on this.
if you didn't get the chance to read his entry, you can read it here.
but you've got to read every word and to the end in order for it to make sense.
it'll really make you think
and it's not exactly one of those nice entries, but it's true ... and that's what matters most.
another thanks to Carson.
this time, for forgivness ... tonight we decided to start over, fresh and new.
it's a new and final start ... no more un-necessary drama bringing our friendship apart.
and i couldn't be more serious this time.