It's always something with these things isn't it?
I'm not sure if anyone remembers my ecstatic post last month about my girl telling me that she is definitely going to try and be here by February '09. Yeah well ... apparently thats not a thing anymore. I really try not to bring up her moving because I don't want her to feel rushed or think I'm selfish but the last week or so she'd been referring to the time frame as "february or summer". Which was way out of left field. Where the hell did summer come from? This morning we were talking about her wanting more pets which she doesn't have time to care for so I said "If I can wait over a year for my girlfriend to be here, you can wait over a year for more pets". That sparked a conversation which started with her saying summer was because she was having trouble saving money and wanted to have enough when she moved so as not to depend on me. Which is all well and good but I know that's not the whole truth. Eventually she admitted she's been pushing the move date farther and farther back because she's scared. I finally got up the courage to tell her that I was scared that this LDR was never going to end. That every time a date got close she would chicken out and jerk me around again. In 8 months we've gone through about 5 different changes in when it would end. She's saying March now. Whenever in March my spring break is I'll take off work and go down to help her move. I can't even find it in me to be happy about it though because it's like the girl who cried move at this point. I'll be excited when her house is in boxes and we're putting in the U-Haul. I just can't take another disappointment so I refuse to get my hopes up. I'm glad I'm going to see her next week because any longer than that I'd go crazy.