It'd taken her time to get over there. She'd mustered the motivation, thrown a change of clothes into a bag. On the train ride over, she'd wondered if this made her weak. If this meant that she wasn't being strong or independent enough. She vaguely remembered taking comfort in Hikari's presence (over a year ago now and Hikari was dead and gone) - that had been just like this. There was nothing wrong. Minato was gone. Naoto was trapped in his - her, she reminded herself - home. And she didn't want to talk to Misato and pride would have prevented her, even if she'd wanted to.
She finally arrived outside Yukari's and she slowly raised her cellphone to her ear, listening to it dial and then ring, "Hey. It's me."
"Be right down," she answered, opening the door as she hung up. The practical things started to kick once she pushed the "down" button in the elevator. There was plenty to eat and loads of space and if push came to shove, they could order out. Hopefully, it'd be enough for a couple of days. Yukari huddled a bit more in her jacket when the wind hit her outside. Could nature make this situation even worse?
There she was. "Asuka!" She waved her over to the door.
Asuka huddled in her jacket as she waited for Yukari. This was miserable. Stupid weather just made her feel worse. She didn't want to think about any of it. Kaworu in a hospital bed, how the Hell she was supposed to take care of everything, how she was going to cope, how she was alone again and that last piece of her world was gone. First her mother, then Kaji, Hikari, Shinji and now Kaworu. Everyone left her. Nobody cared.
She was shaken out of her reverie by the sound of the door opening and Yukari's voice. For a moment it was a relief to see someone familiar and she breezed past Yukari and through the open door, trying to keep a smile on her face, "Hey, Yukari!"
She wasn't going to break down. She wouldn't let herself.
Yukari didn't miss Asuka's weak smile or casual air, and at that point she decided to let her be about the subject. The need to put forward normalcy in the midst of crisis was how some people dealed with it all. Yukari was one of those people. Pride and stubbornness did not combine well with grief as she well knew. Better to let the once Eva pilot come to terms in her own time and be there for her when the inevitable happened.
"Hey, Asuka," she answered calmly. "Hope you don't mind a guest bedroom."
The door to the building shut with a soft click behind her as she followed Asuka's suggestion. Yukari couldn't pretend to know Asuka as well as Kaworud did--had. Kaworu had. Her train of thought derailed for an instant. Another person to use the past tense on who didn't deserve it. She shook her head to clear out any more potential thoughts down that path or wayward tears, smiling back at the redhead. "It'll just be us for now. Mitsuru-senpai's on a trip for the company and she won't be back for a few days."
"That's fine," Asuka replied, trying not slow down. If she slowed down, if she thought too much, she was going to break down. She couldn't do that. Not here, not now. Not in front of her friend.
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"It's pretty nice. But--I still really miss with living with everyone. Can you believe it? How do you miss Junpei?" she tried to joke. It fell a bit flat, but the situation didn't lend any help.
Yukari shifted from foot to foot while they waited for the elevator. She hadn't even done anything or been there for Kaworu's passing, and she felt physically and emotionally worn out.
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"Yeah, I know - what's that idiot been doing these days anyway?"
The small-talk felt wrong. It felt wrong to be pretending like this, to bottle it up inside. But she didn't want to let it out and have Yukari see her at her weakest. She didn't want to break. She wouldn't. She bit her lip, forcing down the tightness in her throat. Not here.
She was briefly saved by the elevator and she breezed into it, facing away so that Yukari wouldn't see the tears welling her eyes.
"...what floor?" The question came out strained, her voice cracked.
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"I've got it," she said quietly. A push of the button to the top floor, a closing of doors, and the long ride up began. Yukari did her best to keep from glancing over at Asuka or ask if she was okay or anything that would acknowledge the still-fresh wound.
With a soft chuckle, she leaned against the wall. Silence was deafening, huh?
She finally arrived outside Yukari's and she slowly raised her cellphone to her ear, listening to it dial and then ring, "Hey. It's me."
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There she was. "Asuka!" She waved her over to the door.
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She was shaken out of her reverie by the sound of the door opening and Yukari's voice. For a moment it was a relief to see someone familiar and she breezed past Yukari and through the open door, trying to keep a smile on her face, "Hey, Yukari!"
She wasn't going to break down. She wouldn't let herself.
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"Hey, Asuka," she answered calmly. "Hope you don't mind a guest bedroom."
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She shrugged her duffel bag a bit higher on her shoulder and glanced at Yukari, "Lead the way!"
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"How've you been over here?"
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Yukari shifted from foot to foot while they waited for the elevator. She hadn't even done anything or been there for Kaworu's passing, and she felt physically and emotionally worn out.
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The small-talk felt wrong. It felt wrong to be pretending like this, to bottle it up inside. But she didn't want to let it out and have Yukari see her at her weakest. She didn't want to break. She wouldn't. She bit her lip, forcing down the tightness in her throat. Not here.
She was briefly saved by the elevator and she breezed into it, facing away so that Yukari wouldn't see the tears welling her eyes.
"...what floor?" The question came out strained, her voice cracked.
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With a soft chuckle, she leaned against the wall. Silence was deafening, huh?
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