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I met with these prayer ladies today. an hour and 45 minute session. They did this thing to me call memory erase. Where they bring you back to your -enter incidence here- and put Jesus there.
They brought me back and asked me how i felt and what was going on. I was there. right there in the midst of the chaos and pain and confusion. they asked me how i felt. I guess I said I felt busy and scared. Like there were a million things to do. and I didnt know what to do.
They asked where i was and what I was doing and how i got there. I said the on the bathroom floor of room 105. Then they placed Jesus in my memory. I saw Him right there with me, he was there in human form. it was crazy. and I saw Brent right there. but no one else was there even though people were in fact there.
They asked me what Jesus was doing. He was knealing right there on the bathroom floor. and there was blood everywhere. it was weird. And I couldnt see the face anywhere. it was gone. I would see it everywhere i looked. I would lay in bed and close my eyes it was there i would see it in the reflection of my shower door. I would see it out of the corner of my eye. and the voice was gone to. I couldnt here it or what it was saying.
Then they asked me how I felt. I felt calm. I wasnt scared anymore. I am not. Anymore.
they dont in fact erase the memory. they just kind of take it all away. If that makes sense.
My ulcer has calmed down too. It has been acting up for the last 2 weeks.
It was good. I needed that.
Pastor David emailed me. that really helped alot. He told me not to try to figure things out. dont focus on it. simple.
so between talking with him my dad and these ladies. i think i will be ok. i am sleeping in sean and shannons guest room tonight and prob tomorrow night.
I want to go frolfing.
They brought me back and asked me how i felt and what was going on. I was there. right there in the midst of the chaos and pain and confusion. they asked me how i felt. I guess I said I felt busy and scared. Like there were a million things to do. and I didnt know what to do.
They asked where i was and what I was doing and how i got there. I said the on the bathroom floor of room 105. Then they placed Jesus in my memory. I saw Him right there with me, he was there in human form. it was crazy. and I saw Brent right there. but no one else was there even though people were in fact there.
They asked me what Jesus was doing. He was knealing right there on the bathroom floor. and there was blood everywhere. it was weird. And I couldnt see the face anywhere. it was gone. I would see it everywhere i looked. I would lay in bed and close my eyes it was there i would see it in the reflection of my shower door. I would see it out of the corner of my eye. and the voice was gone to. I couldnt here it or what it was saying.
Then they asked me how I felt. I felt calm. I wasnt scared anymore. I am not. Anymore.
they dont in fact erase the memory. they just kind of take it all away. If that makes sense.
My ulcer has calmed down too. It has been acting up for the last 2 weeks.
It was good. I needed that.
Pastor David emailed me. that really helped alot. He told me not to try to figure things out. dont focus on it. simple.
so between talking with him my dad and these ladies. i think i will be ok. i am sleeping in sean and shannons guest room tonight and prob tomorrow night.
I want to go frolfing.