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[lovemedeath]

Ashtray bathtub water, rum more rum, I'm scrubbing the remnants of you off of my skin. Today, pulled my sweater close to my face, inhaling your scent deeply, breathing you. I feel you. I imagine fragments of dried cum, crusting over delicately between the softness of my porcelain legs, your teeth prints, hesitant, crawling across the back my neck,

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[milklessbones]

The last few lines, I know what you mean. Perhaps not exactly, and maybe you don't want to hear it. You're not the only one, darling. I hope we can speak again sometime.

[lovemedeath]

no, I believe you can relate, even if the situation is not exactly the same. The feelings are the same, and that's what matters I think. I love speaking with you, I don't know why I get so strange about responding to your messages. I guess I understand how my words affect you negatively, and it makes me see myself as bothersome and intrusive.

[milklessbones]

I'm sorry, I never meant to make you feel bothersome or intrusive. You are nothing like that in the least. At that time I was going through some difficulties and even the smallest thing made me uncomfortable, the best way to deal with it for me was just to not see it. You weren't the only person I pushed away. You know what I've learned, to "suck the marrow of life" just like Thoreau would say, nothing anybody says seems to penetrate me anymore unless I let it. I feel so foolish, because I do know how certain actions can affect a person, even the most trivial. I absolutely adore speaking to you, you are an intellectual and I don't feel that I get enough of that. The strange thing is that we both are going through some deep emotional situations, as usual we can relate to one another. Anyway, sorry for the terribly long response, I hope you didn't doze reading it!

[lovemedeath]

I didn't mean to imply that it was your fault I felt that way, I always feel bothersome on a certain level. I guess I just understood too well why I was one of the people you pushed away, I would push myself away. I have that effect on people. But I hope to keep speaking with you because I really do enjoy you and I don't get enough intellectualism either. I adore you, really.