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okay so i recently just stuffed my face which i feel totally bad about but i couldnt help it, ugh and i totally ruined my liquid fast. but i threw it up after which is okay i guess. tomorow im starting over. and yeah today i was getting all depressed bc of tyler (my ex of like 2 1/2 months) i mean i guess i still like him but oh well he'll never like me again. so yeah i was also really bored so i wrote a poem about liek how i was feeling at the time lol so yeah here it is..
what will it take? when will he see? that i still love him more than any love can be. i want to go back, back to when he was mine. back to the good times when i didnt always cry, myself to sleep, knowing that his liking for me is so low, while my love for him is so high, when all i want is to sparkle in his eye. i try to forget, try to move on, but i cant, too hard. pain, something i experience daily, like a sharp blade pressing against my skin. but dont worry, ill be okay, or at least thats what i want you to beleive. my feelings now are hidden so deep, that it eats away at my heart as i sleep. i try so hard not to take it out on other people, try so hard to keep it secret, for fear of being rejected. they're so blinded by my big fake smile, that they dont see the real me. if they knew they probably wouldn't care, wouldn't understand, so i just bury it in, the pit of my stomache, how it growls with hunger, but no one notices, or even cares. when will they realize that it's not a cry for help, its a scream.
yeah its long i know. okay well im gonna go, ill try to write again tomorow. Later bitches! xo Sarah
p.s. write comments and tell me wht you think of the poem?
okay so i recently just stuffed my face which i feel totally bad about but i couldnt help it, ugh and i totally ruined my liquid fast. but i threw it up after which is okay i guess. tomorow im starting over. and yeah today i was getting all depressed bc of tyler (my ex of like 2 1/2 months) i mean i guess i still like him but oh well he'll never like me again. so yeah i was also really bored so i wrote a poem about liek how i was feeling at the time lol so yeah here it is..
what will it take? when will he see? that i still love him more than any love can be. i want to go back, back to when he was mine. back to the good times when i didnt always cry, myself to sleep, knowing that his liking for me is so low, while my love for him is so high, when all i want is to sparkle in his eye. i try to forget, try to move on, but i cant, too hard. pain, something i experience daily, like a sharp blade pressing against my skin. but dont worry, ill be okay, or at least thats what i want you to beleive. my feelings now are hidden so deep, that it eats away at my heart as i sleep. i try so hard not to take it out on other people, try so hard to keep it secret, for fear of being rejected. they're so blinded by my big fake smile, that they dont see the real me. if they knew they probably wouldn't care, wouldn't understand, so i just bury it in, the pit of my stomache, how it growls with hunger, but no one notices, or even cares. when will they realize that it's not a cry for help, its a scream.
yeah its long i know. okay well im gonna go, ill try to write again tomorow. Later bitches! xo Sarah
p.s. write comments and tell me wht you think of the poem?