*But I realized that I need you, and I wondered If I could come home*
Wonder how you're making out.
OK well the last days of my life if ya wanted to know. Everything is good. I like where I am in life and Im content with who I am and where I am right now. Im reassured with what the future could bring and I like what I m hearing. *you know who you are and what im talking about* lol Yes Ive changed alot and others that really no me know that I have. If youve known me a while then you can tell. My family and *close* friends say that ive changed, am more responsible and stuff.
Its funny cause certain people think im so called immature but they dont know who I am and what I do everyday. They dont know my life. I was talking to my bud Matt Boubel the other day and out of no where he goes yea i reading your journal and you're mature beyond your years. Then he told me things that I never understood in the past that I now get cause were at the same place in our lives.
Ive experienced alot of things that people here have never seen or been around in the last yr. good thing Ive had my fun and seen things cause now i know where I stand . The people here have just begun. I love it now. I could care less what people think of me, cause I know where I stand, what the future will bring, who I can trust; who I cant. Ive met so many people in the last yr, just from work, friends in san antonio, and here. I learn something different from everyone. I know many people and by knowing lots of people I can pick things from them off the bat. you can talk all you want about me but i know they're not true and it wont get to me.
Thats why I hate boerne cause they pick a situation and blow it up out of proportion then it should be. I just laugh. I try my best to understand people but its hard when you lose trust for some.
I hate this so much i miss chelsea brittany joe chels 2 kelly ana and those amigos.....!! I miss going downtown and yelling FATTIE out the window and then driving off haha! lol JOE! I miss you so much! lol that one time we went to woodlawn lake and the ducks! HAHA. then me driving your moms truck and almost hitting some1! lol oh well. BRITTANY! gawd i miss you too. It sucks cause chelsea was talking to me and she was like yea i even saw my ex wes before i saw you. thats pretty sad.
its ok ill see chels this friday hopefully. lol we havent really "talked" in forever ...... you know that when their music changes. wow chels i never knew you liked some of the bands that you listen to. well duh incubus but yea. the 3 amigos.. chels, wes, me! wes was like my big bro man. i went to him for guy advice! no joke! SIMBA! good thing summer will almost be here... ill keep my self busy till then.
man i love working on weekends b/c i love my manager on wknds. Frany~ shes so awesome. she was like DUDE come clubbin with us friday and i was like lol uuhh frany i cant im not 18! we have our little "in group" at work so the other managers cant find out or she will get in troub. we share music its cool. we were talking and i was like "yea i dont really try to fit into a group or try to impress everyone at school cause besides.. im not gonna see these people after high school anyway"...she was like well at least you realize that now. Im my own person ...
i have lots on my mind just not enough time.. I got my checkings acct. the other day and a "WICKED COOL" atm card. a lot of things have been happening the last days. im not gonna spend too much time on them and if things happen for the best then they happen for the better. but if they dont work out then they just dont and thats how the system works. today i didnt go to school caues i was so tired so my friend robbie from worked picked me up, he listens to cool music.. he asked me to go to movies friday but i dont like him that way so i said no that i had other stuff to do. hey you cant lead people on.. i just wouldnt feel right. besides i like someone alot.
Im exccitted about the future ! I just need a few things in my life and ill be happy. Ive figured things out on my own.. Dont worry hun ill work on your b-day present. I want us to be happy with each other no matter how long it takes:you and me and understanding: only 2 wks till your world is gonna be rocking....minee too! theres so many signs everyday on everything i do about us and im still wondering if these signs are supposed to be good or bad. hopefully good... let fate decide.
I wanna dance in the rain with you and sing and let the whole world fly on by
it makes me so happy that the people that I care about the most are happy with who I am ... Its the greatest feeling in the world. ive put so many things together in the last few days...
on saturday i went shopping with my mom and sister then i had work from 2-10 and after my sister picked me up and went to my aunts house and everyone was doing karaoke and stuff. my uncle tom was there and i love his character so much! hes my gay uncle how can you not love him!
we sang karaoke to the awesomest songs.
well thats alot but thats not even half of it... love yalls :)
This is the first day of my life;
Your's is the first face that I saw,
Think I was blind before I met you
And I Dont know where I am,
dont know where Ive been..
but I know where I want to go
So i thought Id let you know
Yea these things take forever
I especially am slow
but I realized that I need you
and I wondered If I could come home.
...besides maybe this time is different, I think you'll really like me
I dreamed you were carried away on the crest of a wave, baby dont go away... come here
OK well the last days of my life if ya wanted to know. Everything is good. I like where I am in life and Im content with who I am and where I am right now. Im reassured with what the future could bring and I like what I m hearing. *you know who you are and what im talking about* lol Yes Ive changed alot and others that really no me know that I have. If youve known me a while then you can tell. My family and *close* friends say that ive changed, am more responsible and stuff.
Its funny cause certain people think im so called immature but they dont know who I am and what I do everyday. They dont know my life. I was talking to my bud Matt Boubel the other day and out of no where he goes yea i reading your journal and you're mature beyond your years. Then he told me things that I never understood in the past that I now get cause were at the same place in our lives.
Ive experienced alot of things that people here have never seen or been around in the last yr. good thing Ive had my fun and seen things cause now i know where I stand . The people here have just begun. I love it now. I could care less what people think of me, cause I know where I stand, what the future will bring, who I can trust; who I cant. Ive met so many people in the last yr, just from work, friends in san antonio, and here. I learn something different from everyone. I know many people and by knowing lots of people I can pick things from them off the bat. you can talk all you want about me but i know they're not true and it wont get to me.
Thats why I hate boerne cause they pick a situation and blow it up out of proportion then it should be. I just laugh. I try my best to understand people but its hard when you lose trust for some.
I hate this so much i miss chelsea brittany joe chels 2 kelly ana and those amigos.....!! I miss going downtown and yelling FATTIE out the window and then driving off haha! lol JOE! I miss you so much! lol that one time we went to woodlawn lake and the ducks! HAHA. then me driving your moms truck and almost hitting some1! lol oh well. BRITTANY! gawd i miss you too. It sucks cause chelsea was talking to me and she was like yea i even saw my ex wes before i saw you. thats pretty sad.
its ok ill see chels this friday hopefully. lol we havent really "talked" in forever ...... you know that when their music changes. wow chels i never knew you liked some of the bands that you listen to. well duh incubus but yea. the 3 amigos.. chels, wes, me! wes was like my big bro man. i went to him for guy advice! no joke! SIMBA! good thing summer will almost be here... ill keep my self busy till then.
man i love working on weekends b/c i love my manager on wknds. Frany~ shes so awesome. she was like DUDE come clubbin with us friday and i was like lol uuhh frany i cant im not 18! we have our little "in group" at work so the other managers cant find out or she will get in troub. we share music its cool. we were talking and i was like "yea i dont really try to fit into a group or try to impress everyone at school cause besides.. im not gonna see these people after high school anyway"...she was like well at least you realize that now. Im my own person ...
i have lots on my mind just not enough time.. I got my checkings acct. the other day and a "WICKED COOL" atm card. a lot of things have been happening the last days. im not gonna spend too much time on them and if things happen for the best then they happen for the better. but if they dont work out then they just dont and thats how the system works. today i didnt go to school caues i was so tired so my friend robbie from worked picked me up, he listens to cool music.. he asked me to go to movies friday but i dont like him that way so i said no that i had other stuff to do. hey you cant lead people on.. i just wouldnt feel right. besides i like someone alot.
Im exccitted about the future ! I just need a few things in my life and ill be happy. Ive figured things out on my own.. Dont worry hun ill work on your b-day present. I want us to be happy with each other no matter how long it takes:you and me and understanding: only 2 wks till your world is gonna be rocking....minee too! theres so many signs everyday on everything i do about us and im still wondering if these signs are supposed to be good or bad. hopefully good... let fate decide.
I wanna dance in the rain with you and sing and let the whole world fly on by
it makes me so happy that the people that I care about the most are happy with who I am ... Its the greatest feeling in the world. ive put so many things together in the last few days...
on saturday i went shopping with my mom and sister then i had work from 2-10 and after my sister picked me up and went to my aunts house and everyone was doing karaoke and stuff. my uncle tom was there and i love his character so much! hes my gay uncle how can you not love him!
we sang karaoke to the awesomest songs.
well thats alot but thats not even half of it... love yalls :)
This is the first day of my life;
Your's is the first face that I saw,
Think I was blind before I met you
And I Dont know where I am,
dont know where Ive been..
but I know where I want to go
So i thought Id let you know
Yea these things take forever
I especially am slow
but I realized that I need you
and I wondered If I could come home.
...besides maybe this time is different, I think you'll really like me
I dreamed you were carried away on the crest of a wave, baby dont go away... come here