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i feel panicked. i can't do this. i am obviously determined to reach my goal weight. but right now i just feel this overwhelming urge to SI.....i have been on the verge of spacing out for the past couple hours, and if it gets past the point that i am now, i wont have any other choice but to do it. i feel so depressed and nervous and anxious. but i don't want to let myself go there.....i havent done it in a little while and i definitely dont want to start back up again.
FUCK!! i am really afraid when i feel like this.
FUCK!! i am really afraid when i feel like this.