Just being honest
I know sometimes I say im content, but im really not. I truly fear being alone.
I miss a womans touch, be it stud or femm. I miss the companionship and the laying on and cuddling and snuggling. I miss all of the times shared and secrets shared. The spoiling an being spoiled, the cooking for and being thanked. The kisses, the smiles, the passionate looks exchanged. The dreams of, dreams for and dreams with. The sleeping with, the sex, the love making the orgasms. The tears of passion and joy and sighs of relief and the being pleased and pleasing. The loyalty, the trust...the openness the rawness and realness...the being touched in every way possible that exists in a lesbian relationship. I miss it all...i miss it almost too much.
Its funny how we as humans just need someone else, a companion. I know I do at least. I just hate the whole dating scene. The getting to know, building trust, and starting all over again. Its the worst. I just want something simple. A simple love, if it exists. I want the picnics and the slow intimate dances by candle light, the walks on the beach, the kisses at a dinner. I want that and so much more. My ideal birthday present, is a day at the bookstore...im really not that complex at all. Im not simple enough to be boring either. So i figure maybe if I put it out in the universe it will come back to me.
Or am I really just asking for too much?
Sometimes my heart just aches. *breathes deeply*
I miss a womans touch, be it stud or femm. I miss the companionship and the laying on and cuddling and snuggling. I miss all of the times shared and secrets shared. The spoiling an being spoiled, the cooking for and being thanked. The kisses, the smiles, the passionate looks exchanged. The dreams of, dreams for and dreams with. The sleeping with, the sex, the love making the orgasms. The tears of passion and joy and sighs of relief and the being pleased and pleasing. The loyalty, the trust...the openness the rawness and realness...the being touched in every way possible that exists in a lesbian relationship. I miss it all...i miss it almost too much.
Its funny how we as humans just need someone else, a companion. I know I do at least. I just hate the whole dating scene. The getting to know, building trust, and starting all over again. Its the worst. I just want something simple. A simple love, if it exists. I want the picnics and the slow intimate dances by candle light, the walks on the beach, the kisses at a dinner. I want that and so much more. My ideal birthday present, is a day at the bookstore...im really not that complex at all. Im not simple enough to be boring either. So i figure maybe if I put it out in the universe it will come back to me.
Or am I really just asking for too much?
Sometimes my heart just aches. *breathes deeply*