Oh well
I started getting close to someone. They have a lot going on in their life. So, this person would drift in and out sometimes without a word or an explanation. I didn't feel it in my place to say anything. I didn't want to tie this person down who was more like a free spirit to me. But I would miss this person when they were gone and wonder if they would be back. When they were here. They were all here and it was really nice. But when they weren't, I wondered if I existed. Well, circumstances changed and they are further away and looking to move even further. They stopped liking my pictures and my posts. I think they are gone, but without closure, it's a little bit of a let down. I don't know where I stood to them or what I meant to them. Was it just physical? Or was their a spiritual connection that I was starting to feel. I might have been able to fall in love, but I chose to be cautious and I'm glad I did.
It was a new foray into a world I've only ever talked about and watched from a distance. It happened just as I wanted it to. Slow, attraction, flirting, no strings, no forcing, no pressure. It seemed perfect. Maybe too perfect.
I miss them. I'm not mad at them. A little sad and disappointed. I'm also happy that I had some special moments to share with them. It's opened up new possibilities in my mind, about how things could work, but it continues to make my heart cautious. Who has time for it anyway? And the last thing I need in my life is drama.
It was a new foray into a world I've only ever talked about and watched from a distance. It happened just as I wanted it to. Slow, attraction, flirting, no strings, no forcing, no pressure. It seemed perfect. Maybe too perfect.
I miss them. I'm not mad at them. A little sad and disappointed. I'm also happy that I had some special moments to share with them. It's opened up new possibilities in my mind, about how things could work, but it continues to make my heart cautious. Who has time for it anyway? And the last thing I need in my life is drama.