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[lovelylotta]

I am having a hard time with being in a constant state of want.
I am having a hard time with wanting something that for so long, I said I didn't.
I am having a hard time with feeling punished for not wanting earlier.
I am having a hard time with dealing with disappointment.
I am having a hard time with knowing I have no control.
I am having a hard time with reaching out.
I am having a hard time.