I feel like half of that applies to me to. I HATE phones. HATE HATE HATE HATE. I always have my cell turned off, I do my best not to answer the phone when I'm at home and I almost NEVER actually call someone. The worst part about my job last summer was making confirmation calls. My heart started pounding every time. If someone calls me, I'll talk and talk and be happy, but I have this extreme discomfort about calling other people... no matter who they are. You, Margaret, my family, doesn't make a difference. And I feel like I don't make the effort to keep relationships going. I'm so frightened. I honestly feel like I'm going to lose you now that our contact is mostly limited to phone and computer. I feel like I'll lose ALL my friends when the time comes for us to all move away from Rhinebeck and start on our own lives. I'm just as social/ anti-social as I've been my whole life, but now I feel like the stakes are different. I too am avoiding people on aim. Hence, I am NEVER on. And I've kinda worked my way into a busy contentment with cleaning, crocheting, reading, and working that doesn't really give me the time to feel lonely.
And I'm kinda afraid that this is the way my life is going to be forever... warmly contently busy but with no real joy or excitement. What kind of life is that?
Sorry that I have nothing to trade to learn the secret of your thrusting abilities.
oh man, if there is anyone I'm not worried about - it's you! We're gonna be friends even if we don't hang out every day, I know that much.
I wonder if this whole college time is about learning your place in relationships and the world and stuff. I've realized friends make me happier and more content, especially when it comes down to just having someone to talk to. But I don't know.
Anyway I have to go use the shower, we're leaving soon. I think next weekend I will either go there, or you should come here. And You know, about the phone, something that keeps me going is the fact that back in the old days you didn't have a phone, and you didn't have the internet, and all those people survived and had long lasting relationships. I think we've just turned into an overbearing clingy society. We over do it. I would do well in the 1700's just seeing people and writing letters I think sometimes.
And I'm kinda afraid that this is the way my life is going to be forever... warmly contently busy but with no real joy or excitement. What kind of life is that?
Sorry that I have nothing to trade to learn the secret of your thrusting abilities.
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I wonder if this whole college time is about learning your place in relationships and the world and stuff. I've realized friends make me happier and more content, especially when it comes down to just having someone to talk to. But I don't know.
Anyway I have to go use the shower, we're leaving soon. I think next weekend I will either go there, or you should come here. And You know, about the phone, something that keeps me going is the fact that back in the old days you didn't have a phone, and you didn't have the internet, and all those people survived and had long lasting relationships. I think we've just turned into an overbearing clingy society. We over do it. I would do well in the 1700's just seeing people and writing letters I think sometimes.
Love!
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