don't worry bout it
so today I got my haircut. trimmed, actually, so I don't care if no one notices. my hair feels healthy. and I like that. and I got to talk to Ms. Sherry. It was a lot of fun. and we pretty much think the same way about pretty much everything. I love it. I love her. and the Janney's in general. they are kind of amazing and the loves of my life.
at work today, Brilee asked me if I had gone a day without thinking about it yet, and I said no, and she told me she was glad she wasn't the only one. and it is still really hard to think about and I can't really grasp the concept that he's still not there for her to go home to. and finding out that creekland is raising money for them is just really weird. I can't even imagine how they must be feeling.
and the croc hunter decides to go and die in the most retarded way ever, so that sucks some more.
even though things aren't perfect right now, I am happy. because I have Kyle and Chantique. Espcially Kyle, right now. Him just being around me makes me feel like everything is going to be ok. and I am so excited because it's my baby's birthday next weekend. :) I can't wait to give him his present. I wanna see his reaction. that's my favorite part about birthday presents. except when people don't like your present. or don't care about it. but that's not gonna happen with this present :)
so I pretty much have a list of people I have not hung out with in for-freaking-ever, and I want to hang out with them. people like Britta, David, Karen, Catalina, Yolimaris, and Bradley. that's my beef with having a job. after I get off, people have already planned out what I am doing so I don't get to see them much anymore. and it's like we all have our own groups now and it's really weird. my core posse has changed so much and I've missed out on all these things going on in my friend's lives. it's like we've been too busy getting closer to new friends to stay close with the "old" ones. it makes me sad thinking about not talking to some of those people for the rest of my life, and I really don't like that. I love them just as much as I always have even though I don't really show it all the time and I want to hang out with them so they know it, too.
at work today, Brilee asked me if I had gone a day without thinking about it yet, and I said no, and she told me she was glad she wasn't the only one. and it is still really hard to think about and I can't really grasp the concept that he's still not there for her to go home to. and finding out that creekland is raising money for them is just really weird. I can't even imagine how they must be feeling.
and the croc hunter decides to go and die in the most retarded way ever, so that sucks some more.
even though things aren't perfect right now, I am happy. because I have Kyle and Chantique. Espcially Kyle, right now. Him just being around me makes me feel like everything is going to be ok. and I am so excited because it's my baby's birthday next weekend. :) I can't wait to give him his present. I wanna see his reaction. that's my favorite part about birthday presents. except when people don't like your present. or don't care about it. but that's not gonna happen with this present :)
so I pretty much have a list of people I have not hung out with in for-freaking-ever, and I want to hang out with them. people like Britta, David, Karen, Catalina, Yolimaris, and Bradley. that's my beef with having a job. after I get off, people have already planned out what I am doing so I don't get to see them much anymore. and it's like we all have our own groups now and it's really weird. my core posse has changed so much and I've missed out on all these things going on in my friend's lives. it's like we've been too busy getting closer to new friends to stay close with the "old" ones. it makes me sad thinking about not talking to some of those people for the rest of my life, and I really don't like that. I love them just as much as I always have even though I don't really show it all the time and I want to hang out with them so they know it, too.