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Where did this year go? Wasn't I just walking across the stage a graduation? Wasn't I just packing up to go to college? Now I'm packed up and going home in 10 hours. After my last final tomorrow morning, I will officially be a sophomore in college. A sophomore. Wow. I remember my sophomore year of high school clear as day. Musical Comedy Murders, All-State audition hell, All State IHSSA, Les Miz...If everything is so clear, shouldn't it have just been like months ago? This year is almost a blur it went so fast. I don't want it to go so fast!! I love college!! I'm afraid if it keeps going so quickly I won't feel ready when the time comes to leave the comfort of a University and head out there on my own in a big city, trying to prove myself as a worthy competitor in this insane field I've chosen. It's so scary and so exhilerating and I just don't know what to think anymore. This is all so strange. I'll be glad to be home. I miss my family, and I'll be happy to spend time with them, but I have this whole new family here that I love and won't see for three months. It's possible I won't see some of the people I call family ever again. And that's terrifying. But that's life. People come in and out of it and you cherish them and the memories they leave with you and you create new ones and good GOD I'm being way to philisophical for a Sunday night before my last few hours at Millikin for the year. But I'm not tired. And I don't think I'll sleep tonight. If I do, I won't sleep soundly. I should, because I have a six hour drive ahead of me, but finding a good, sound sleep will be difficult tonight. To my dear college friends, nay, family, I love you and I will miss you more than you'll know over the summer. To my darling seniors: I wish you love and luck as you venture out into this amusement park we call life. I hope you won't forget me, as I will never forget you and all you've done for me. To my friends back home: I hope to spend some quality time with you this summer. I know how much we've all changed and we may never be as we once were, but I hope we can talk and laugh and enjoy our new differences and exciting adventures. To my fellow travelers: Bon Voyage, and to my dear old MU: Thanks for the intensely wonderful roller coaster ride, it's been incredible. I can't wait to see what you have in store for me next year.
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