...Tonight I had a date. With this boy I met completely by chance last Wednesday, at the gas station of all places. It was one of those situations that started as a bad situation but turned into something potentially good. I was on my way home, turned off the freeway and got a flat. I made it to the gas station on the corner. The tire was nearly ( Read more... )

Totally got the VIP treatment everywhere we went. It was nice. I went out with John, Liam and Laura from the band to preview these two venues for upcoming shows and meet with representatives and talk over plans both large and small scale. The first place was a total high end bro bar during happy hour. Had some yummy tuna tartar on a black sesame ( Read more... )

i'm going on a second date tomorrow with a boy I'm really starting to like, Mike. There's a lot we have in common. Hopefully this will go somewhere because i'm happy again around him and I think he's someone who will motivate me to be more active and doing things outside.

Happy Valentines.

Thank you John, the flowers are beautiful. I've got them on the desk here next to me in the window. You didn't know, but lilies are one of my favorite flowers. I wasn't expecting to get anything today, just to talk with you. I love you.


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One last look.
Blow a kiss goodbye.
A slow wave then that's it, we're both gone.
Be safe my darling, I love you.

I think this was about the best Thanksgiving ever. The past few days have just been so nice. John's flight got in right as all the food was getting finished up. The turkey turned out delicious, not bad for my first time ever cooking one. Everything else was really good as well. My families yam casserole, corn on the cob, a rice stuffing I did on a ( Read more... )

Haven't written to you all in a while, so I thought I'd send an update about life out to those of you who care enough to check up ( Read more... )

Note to self, boys are stupid. Don't be stupid too and fall for it. I want to slap Darren sometimes. It's finally hitting him how good I was to and for him. Finally realizing all he's lost. Apparently he cried himself to sleep the other night because of it. He's trying to get time with me again because of this. He's calling me again. It's too late ( Read more... )

Longing and hope is worse than pain and tears...Twist of the knife, push it in further...

I wish it was pain I felt...I could cry, start an inferno with my tears on the pillow, and move on.

Things are going really well right now. I've been spending pretty much all my free time with Darren. Saturday was Sierra Cup Classic, the HS band competition Fresno State hosts, so I went to that. Darren had to work it part of the time, so I went around and said hi to all my old band friends here. And watched the shows. It was nice, I got that good ( Read more... )