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AHEM TO TOP IT ALL OFF MY MOTHER FOR FUCKING SAKES IS TRYING TO JOKE ABOUT IT!!! "OH I HAVE DONE THIS A MILLION TIMES BEFORE, NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT I JUST NEVER HIT ANYONE" Ugh now see you fucking think that getting hit by a car is the dumbest thing to get upset over but then you obviously either are not my friend or are my friend and don't give a damn or pay attention to how I feel about certain things. I am effected differently then some of you. One SMALL little thing can change my view on EVERYTHING in a matter of seconds and a matter of seconds later my viewpoint is changed yet again with something totally different. This is the side of me that I want NO ONE to see because it is the worst of me it brings everything everyone hates out of me and I turn into someone that no one can even attempt to look at. I hate this I really do. I can't even begin to explain. But this is something that is SOOOO very hard to control that it is near impossibly I'm tired of breaking things I just want someone who I can talk to and they know exactly what I'm talking about and I can't find anyone yet who knows. I just want someone here who knows how to make me calm down. I don't know what the fuck to do. This is the one thing about me that can change EVERYONE'S view of me and I end up losing the ones closest to me because if my "bitch fits" but this isn't a fucking bitch fit this is something that is unpredictable you will never know when it will stop and when it will start and I hate it. Bye!!!!!!