Doodle Dreams: Chapter 1
"Yunho oppa, can you please help me? I'm having troubles understanding history. The professor is quite boring, and i figured i would understand it better if you are the one who's teaching?
Huh, yeah right! As if you can concentrate. I mean, not being arrrogant but it really isn't obvious that she like me.
"Ah, but you see, i have a lot more to do and I'm not really good at explaining things, but try reading the book. It's easy to understand. Mianhe."I answered nicely, despite the fact that I'm really annoyed.
I hate stupid girls! If only they weren't so bad with their studies I would have tried to overlooked the fact that they were stupid in life as well. But no! They know nothing but to flirt and shop, going to bars and clubs, slowly destroying their lives.
Not to mention that this certain stupid girl is so easy to read. Gawd, history is the easiest subject I have this semester, even a dumb girl like her can pass it without even reading a page. I'm so irritated with the fact that her flirting with me is so dense. I feel insulted to think that she could have me with her cakey, thick foundation, 4 inched heels, a super short skirt and a very revealing top! I am much better without these girls.
Oh, you might think that I'm a girl-hater eh? Nope I'm not. I just have high standards, I mean, I'm intelligent, I'm handsome, I'm rich, I'm pretty perfect in many ways a human being can come close to. Don't i deserve someone that is close to what I am?
Anyways, this day is so tiring I just want to go home, have a shower and rest. As i drove to the familiar road I always see, I can't help but get lost in my own wolrd of thoughts. Lately, I find myself to be awfully stupid. I can't stop thinking of the man that appears in my dreams every single damn night since two months ago. I feel like I'm losing a hold of myself.
Okay, since I kinda lost you there, I'll tell you the most confusing story. And I don't expect you to understand. I myself do not understand a thing.
So, two months before, I was invloved in an accident. I was not feeling so well that day but I have no choice but to go to school and take a very important exam. I finished the exam as fast as i can because I could feel that I couldn't hold on much longer. I tried to go home without blacking out but as I cross the road I just felt numb and I saw a car fast approaching. Good thing the car slowed down but before it stopped Iwas already hit. I was brought to the hospital, not by the driver but by a stranger passing by. I think the driver got real scared and just left me there until this man kindly helped me.
When I woke up, i was alone. I tried remembering the face of the man but I couldn't. I guess my head was hit pretty hard. But I do remember that, that man has an angelic voice saying "Yunho-ssi, wake up!" I also have the feeling that I was kissed. You know, the tingly feeling in the lips. It confuses me so much because I was quite sure I don't know who that man is.. but he knows me. And I believe that he knows me well.
After that incident, I keep dreaming of the faceless man, telling me to wake up and that he loves me. And what is really confusing is that I believe without a doubt that he truly loves me, that he's willing to do everything for me. That kinda frightens me, I don't know that, if ever, we will meet I would do nothing but to hurt him.
I feel so pathetic, I mean, is it even possible to fall in love with a dream? Not that I've fallen for him.. Alright maybe a little.. Okay a lot more than a little. But that is why I feel pathetic! Even if he does exist, will he be the same one as what I'm dreaming? And what's more is that I'm a guy for heaven's sake, a straight guy (or so what i keep thinking). I was never attracted to guys before, so what does that make me?
Huh, yeah right! As if you can concentrate. I mean, not being arrrogant but it really isn't obvious that she like me.
"Ah, but you see, i have a lot more to do and I'm not really good at explaining things, but try reading the book. It's easy to understand. Mianhe."I answered nicely, despite the fact that I'm really annoyed.
I hate stupid girls! If only they weren't so bad with their studies I would have tried to overlooked the fact that they were stupid in life as well. But no! They know nothing but to flirt and shop, going to bars and clubs, slowly destroying their lives.
Not to mention that this certain stupid girl is so easy to read. Gawd, history is the easiest subject I have this semester, even a dumb girl like her can pass it without even reading a page. I'm so irritated with the fact that her flirting with me is so dense. I feel insulted to think that she could have me with her cakey, thick foundation, 4 inched heels, a super short skirt and a very revealing top! I am much better without these girls.
Oh, you might think that I'm a girl-hater eh? Nope I'm not. I just have high standards, I mean, I'm intelligent, I'm handsome, I'm rich, I'm pretty perfect in many ways a human being can come close to. Don't i deserve someone that is close to what I am?
Anyways, this day is so tiring I just want to go home, have a shower and rest. As i drove to the familiar road I always see, I can't help but get lost in my own wolrd of thoughts. Lately, I find myself to be awfully stupid. I can't stop thinking of the man that appears in my dreams every single damn night since two months ago. I feel like I'm losing a hold of myself.
Okay, since I kinda lost you there, I'll tell you the most confusing story. And I don't expect you to understand. I myself do not understand a thing.
So, two months before, I was invloved in an accident. I was not feeling so well that day but I have no choice but to go to school and take a very important exam. I finished the exam as fast as i can because I could feel that I couldn't hold on much longer. I tried to go home without blacking out but as I cross the road I just felt numb and I saw a car fast approaching. Good thing the car slowed down but before it stopped Iwas already hit. I was brought to the hospital, not by the driver but by a stranger passing by. I think the driver got real scared and just left me there until this man kindly helped me.
When I woke up, i was alone. I tried remembering the face of the man but I couldn't. I guess my head was hit pretty hard. But I do remember that, that man has an angelic voice saying "Yunho-ssi, wake up!" I also have the feeling that I was kissed. You know, the tingly feeling in the lips. It confuses me so much because I was quite sure I don't know who that man is.. but he knows me. And I believe that he knows me well.
After that incident, I keep dreaming of the faceless man, telling me to wake up and that he loves me. And what is really confusing is that I believe without a doubt that he truly loves me, that he's willing to do everything for me. That kinda frightens me, I don't know that, if ever, we will meet I would do nothing but to hurt him.
I feel so pathetic, I mean, is it even possible to fall in love with a dream? Not that I've fallen for him.. Alright maybe a little.. Okay a lot more than a little. But that is why I feel pathetic! Even if he does exist, will he be the same one as what I'm dreaming? And what's more is that I'm a guy for heaven's sake, a straight guy (or so what i keep thinking). I was never attracted to guys before, so what does that make me?