This is goodbye my [not] love. I'm fed up & all done.
I'm pretty annoyed cuz like every day since I dumped Bobby he's txted me cuz I blocked him in every other way possible.
Thankfully he hasnt bugged me yet today. I even checked my email just now to be sure. Nothing.
He emailed me the other day, the lyrics to some song he'd claimed to have written for me. But he didn't write it. What a loser.
I'm sick of you.
You're nice one minute, then being a dick the next.
While I just want you to leave me alone.
I don't care about you or what you do.
I looked long and hard inside myself & I found that I don't love you.
You hurt me too damn much for that.
You just said all the right things to keep me around.
When I was scared & alone & vulnerable I turned to you cuz you said what I needed to hear.
That's not love.
I'm sorry.
So stop pulling the true love bullshit on me.
Cuz if we were meant to be, you wouldn't be such an asshole.
If you loved me, you wouldn't be with another girl
& I wouldn't want to be with another boy.
So just let me suffer & cry & get over you.
Cuz I'm getting over you Bobby Jewell.
That's one of the last things I said to him. & I really meant it. I can see why he doesn't believe me when I say things like this, but in time he will. He's still saying that he loves me. He says it everyday, but he's with another girl. I don't want to hear it anymore. It just hurts! Like... stop it. I'm sick of it all, I'm sick of him. I'm sick of hurting. I'm sick to death of crying.
He can't keep doing this to me. If he loved me, he'd just accept that I wanna move on & let the past be in the past. But no, he's still trying to hold me back & tie me down. I'm ready. I'm ready to give up on him. I'm not hoping anymore. He had his chances to change & he didn't change. I'm not believing that he really loves me. Not anymore. It's a lie just like everything else. So he can't expect me to fall for the "I changed" act in the future. Cuz you know it's just too little, too late.
One of the times he txted me he said "Well good luck with Frankie, if he even wants you." & I told him to stop being jealous & that what I do is none of his business. "Jealous? HA, I have Bethany why do I need to be jealous over you?"
You keep tellin yourself that dollface.
Cuz I am the best thing you'll never keep.
I'm not the one who messed up mkay? I tried too damn hard to keep something that wasn't worth keepin.
Your luvin's like a car crash
You're gone and I got whiplash
You're a stain I can't get out
I tried bleach and I tried Shout!
You're a loser cuz you lost me :heart: