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[lovelifeforlife]

 long weekends are nice
with empty houses and lots of illegal substances...

and making out with girls...

ahhh it was so strange
we were extremely trashed
and i just love all of my firends so much
ive already made out with 2 guys
why not start with girls
haha

i realize that i mix up my feelings a whole lot
i mix up my friendship love with the real kind
that everyone wants

so expecially when i am under the influence 
the lines blurr so i think im in love with everyone thats around me

well when it comes to my friends
im still good at making the right choices not the bad ones.

im talking to alex again
and i havent told anyone
because im scared and because i dont really want to explain to them why i am doing this

i mean it makes sense to me. 
like tons of sense!
there is no reason for me to hate her anymore
what she did was shitty but it was real
we dont live in fairytale land
we fuck up and fall in love with the wrong people
and i couldnt make her unhappy just for me

so i made me unhappy for her
and it worked
and then i didnt care about him anymore and i missed her
but because i made such a big deal about it i had to keep on my path

and now its like making a new friend
beucase we have to relearn each other completely

which can be bad
but im excited
i cant wait to stay up untill 4 in the morning talking to her about everything
with no fiter
i missed her
i still do