if the choice were mine to make
I am so very depressed right now
almost anything and everything will trigger my depression to come out
I've been doing so well
but now I'm going into a depressive dive again
all cuz of this
WHY?
why am I always just the 'friend'?
why don't guys like me?
why does every little thing make me depressed?
why why why?!?!
I really hate this
I just want to lay in bed ( Read more... )
Don't judge yourself on how guys think of you. I did for so long...I tried to turn myself into something guys wanted. And look who that got me.
But aside from that...I've learned that guys' opinions don't matter as much as my opinion of my self matters. Who are you? Be that person. Be true to youself. Once you are...the RIGHT guys will come. And you won't have to worry about impressing them with who you're not. They'll be attracted to who you are--and no more games and endless heartaches! And besides, you're only 16.
Ugh...I remember my "sweet 16". None of my friends remembered it was my birthday. Brandon only said, "Happy Birthday" in passing. It sucked. But Amber remembered. She brought me a rose and a balloon. Heck, she probably stopped me from killing myself that day.
Anyway...guys are morons. Especially at this age. They only want the girls who make them popular. So...get over them and get into yourself. I wish I had back then...then I wouldn't be where I am now. I hate being shy. It sucks. One of these days I'm going to scare myself and go for it. Of course, the last time I did, I got turned down. But such is life. The next time I saw the jerk was at a dance and he won the limbo by cheating. Yeah...my kinda guy. Not. Man, I have a poor taste in males. I hope I don't end up settling like someone else we know...
Anyway. Point of story--guys are retards. At least right now. They come back smarter from missions. Just don't end up liking Brian Griffeth. I'd shoot you.
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