if the choice were mine to make
I am so very depressed right now
almost anything and everything will trigger my depression to come out
I've been doing so well
but now I'm going into a depressive dive again
all cuz of this
WHY?
why am I always just the 'friend'?
why don't guys like me?
why does every little thing make me depressed?
why why why?!?!
I really hate this
I just want to lay in bed and cry
and never come out
I don't want to do the thing tomorrow
I don't want to do anything
but
In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along
I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense
And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose
But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows
So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows