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hate having to talk to people who treat me like shit and putting a smile on my face as I talk to them. today I had to go to a small little party.(I hated the stupid thing)All I did was sit on the window sill and look out the window.then I had to hear my friend whine how I got dressed in a "nice pair of leather pants" and my rock shirt then he went off on my hair."It should not be in your FACE.push it back so you can see"Well maybe I had it that way because I was not in the best of moods and I just wanted to hide behind it.Then some girl I know.(use to be friends with but she said I was a fuck up all the time so,NOT anymore)came over and I swear,she must have medical problems because she is always,ALWAYS! having mood swings from hell and seems like she has split personalities which I'm sure she does. sits down and starts talking to me.this was the last person I wanted to see so I sat there and gave her the best smile I could and said hi and returned to looking at Tokyo's sky line and then she said Yo.I do not know why but she says that to me and it PISSES me off.she started up on how dorky I looked and laughed at me then kept pulling at my pants leg and talked on about how crapy I looked and I tried so HARD to block the rest out but when she called me A slut that was the last,I stood up and pushed her hand away and took off to the bathroom and sat down on the sink and lust looked at the floor. whe I first started in this business I was still in high school,and a rumor got out I was sleeping with a lot of women so when I'm called that its KILLS Me.the rumor was not true,some guy at school saw me kiss my Aunt on the cheek and then turned it into that.of course on the last day of school he said that all was a lie and walked up to me asking for forgiveness and I jsut walked away,maybe that makes me bad I dont know but I sat in the bathroom the rest of the partty I felt like I was meaningless at that partty,now I'm just glad to be at home and can ware what ever I want. and do what I want and say.