bad guy or good guy???
i've been thinking. am i a good guy or a bad guy? that hit me yesterday. i think im a bad guy. because when i read eleni's journal, i saw that she and her guy went back out. then i was wishin that he'd just drop dead already. then i realized wtf i said. at that point, i KNEW that i was a bad guy. then another thing hit me. i realized that i am a spoiled stubborn little selfish brat who still loves eleni. this was somethin i think eleni was tryin to show me. that i am the bad guy to her. that i always hold her down and piss her off. why me? why couldnt it be someother guy? why is it always me who plays the asshole role? im still jealous. i still want her back. i still love her. you know what that makes me? a selfish prick who shouldnt even exist. i seriously think that my birth was a mistake. so why me? why the fuck do i always lose something good? why does life take away the things that i love most and cherish? fuck it. fallen angels dont get what they deserve. i guess i'll have to keep that in mind.