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I looked at the man standing across me and Slavik. "Are you Julius?" I asked. He nodded. "What do you want?" He asked. "Do you remember who I am?" I asked. "No, I don't." He said. "Do you even remember what you are?" We looked at each others eyes. I could feel the tension increase between us. "Yes, I do." He replied. "Then tell me, what are you?" I asked. "Human." Suddenly, Slavik just burst out into laughter. I knew that Julius was serious. "Slavik calm down. Don't you see? He lost his memory somehow when he came to this miserable planet." Slavik looked at me with seriousness. "How do you think he lost his memory?" He asked. "He probably had a cuncusion when his ship landed here." To me, that was the only explanation. "What do you want me for?" Julius asked. "We want you to come with us. Our race was almost wiped out by a man named Jotisai. He destroyed our planet and now I'm looking for survivors so we can regroup and strike back at him." I said. "Okay, but why did you attack Bayton city?" He looked at me with angry eyes. "To draw you out. Look, I'll stop with the attacks if you will join us." I said. Then Julius went into a fighting stance. "How about I take you guys on. I'll go with you guys if you are not weak." Julius said. I knew it. Fighting was in our blood. This particular man has the true spirit of a Char warrior. I looked at Slavik, he went first. "Okay, this won't take long." Slavik chuckled as he cracked his neck and knuckles. "I hope you're ready kid. Because you don't know what you just got yourself into." The tall, muscular bald warrior went into fighting position. It was on.
endin it right there. you know, sometimes this is how i act. this is how i really am. a fighter. a bloodthirsty soldier. but the keyword to this is WAS. im not any more. you know, after eleni left me, i completely changed. i was not the same. when she left me, i turned my back on her and let the flames of my hatred burn my whole world. i was alone. i wanted to die. everytime i talked to her, i would act like i havent changed, but i did. why did i lie to her? why couldnt i show her how much hate i had? did i still have feelings for her? one thing was for sure though, i wanted to die. lately, we havent been talking. yet im sad because we arent. when in reality i should be happy. but im not. she loves brad alot. and yet i care. yet i am jealous when i shouldn't even care any more. one thing is certain though, it's fucking annoying. the past is the past. i cant go back and stay with her. but yet, if i hadnt broke up with her, i would have never met ash. im sad that me and eleni broke up a long time ago, but also glad that we did. i have ash now. i thought i would never find anyone better than eleni. and i did. so why do i still have feelings about eleni? am i still connected? or is there some unfinished business? i really donnt know at this point. but what i do know is that i love ashley with all of my heart. that i wont let her go. i want to make her happy. i really wish that she was with me right now so i can have her in my arms and know that she's safe. she's on my mind constantly. yea, im young, but that doesnt mean i dont know what love is or how it feels like. i had 14 girlfriends in my life so far. two are REAL relationships. the closest i got to a kiss was on the cheek. i never got my first kiss. it was always holdin hands and a kiss on the cheek. nothin more. yea, i find it pathetic that i havent gotten my first kiss yet. heh, now im just regrettin that i never got it from eleni. whatever. i cant do shit now. i can clearly see that she doesnt even like me any more. so i guess i'll just give up. i suck as her friend. she never relied on me. she never really needed me. im just a joke to her. she has brad. and this just makes me sad to accept it. well, at least i learned somethin. life won't go your way unless the ppl around you cooperate.
endin it right there. you know, sometimes this is how i act. this is how i really am. a fighter. a bloodthirsty soldier. but the keyword to this is WAS. im not any more. you know, after eleni left me, i completely changed. i was not the same. when she left me, i turned my back on her and let the flames of my hatred burn my whole world. i was alone. i wanted to die. everytime i talked to her, i would act like i havent changed, but i did. why did i lie to her? why couldnt i show her how much hate i had? did i still have feelings for her? one thing was for sure though, i wanted to die. lately, we havent been talking. yet im sad because we arent. when in reality i should be happy. but im not. she loves brad alot. and yet i care. yet i am jealous when i shouldn't even care any more. one thing is certain though, it's fucking annoying. the past is the past. i cant go back and stay with her. but yet, if i hadnt broke up with her, i would have never met ash. im sad that me and eleni broke up a long time ago, but also glad that we did. i have ash now. i thought i would never find anyone better than eleni. and i did. so why do i still have feelings about eleni? am i still connected? or is there some unfinished business? i really donnt know at this point. but what i do know is that i love ashley with all of my heart. that i wont let her go. i want to make her happy. i really wish that she was with me right now so i can have her in my arms and know that she's safe. she's on my mind constantly. yea, im young, but that doesnt mean i dont know what love is or how it feels like. i had 14 girlfriends in my life so far. two are REAL relationships. the closest i got to a kiss was on the cheek. i never got my first kiss. it was always holdin hands and a kiss on the cheek. nothin more. yea, i find it pathetic that i havent gotten my first kiss yet. heh, now im just regrettin that i never got it from eleni. whatever. i cant do shit now. i can clearly see that she doesnt even like me any more. so i guess i'll just give up. i suck as her friend. she never relied on me. she never really needed me. im just a joke to her. she has brad. and this just makes me sad to accept it. well, at least i learned somethin. life won't go your way unless the ppl around you cooperate.