I had a dream the other night. Me and you were some place...at the beach...with a bunch of my friends. And for whatever reason I was goin' blind and losin' my mind...and when that wasn't happenin' you had short hair and a GIANT ASS nose. And you asked me to take something back to the room but I had no idea where the room was nor did I have a key. Plus one of my old black friends from high school was there and she kept sayin' "I hate how you white folks never say what you're really thinkin!" And I thought and thought long and hard about what that meant and I think I've figured it out. My love for you is blind. I'll love you no matter what. If you gain a million pounds I'll still love you. If I don't like your hair cut I'll still love you. If your awesome nose went straight to shit I'd still love you. I always and forever will love you all the time constantly no matter what. And the beach symbolized that havin' JUST havin' you there became my favorite place. And the whole key and the room deal..that means I have no clue what the great, grand scheme of shit is...but that's ok 'cause as long as I have you as my reason to care, I can keep goin'....and my colored friend was tryin' to tell me that I need to tell you exactly how I feel every chance I get. And I'd love to...but I'm a shit person. A dude like me does not deserve a girl like you. But that's just current me...I'm doin' everything I can to one day eventually have you in my life every day. I've already given up weed...not so much for you...but because it can open new shit that'll help me make it easier to one day take care of you. As much as I loved marijuana I love Kelly Scott more. And I'm sore-ree for soundin' like a crazy ass dude...but havin' you here and watchin' how you fit into my world made me realize that you're who I ultimately want to be with...and I know maybe you've always thought the whole Marry Kelly Scott Plan was a joke...and it kind of was...to an extent. But after this weekend...I can see that my joke was far ahead of my true intentions. I love you Kelly Scott. I love everything about you. Every single little Goddamn thing...and I can't imagine ever bein' happy without you. So I've buried this in your LJ...maybe one day you'll see it. I hope it's not anytime soon..I have a lot to prove and I want to get to a place where I'm a better man so I can take care of you and we can share every single moment together. I know it all sounds nuts...but love makes you crazy. And I know we fit...and I know one day we'll end up together. Hell even my damn Mom said tonight..."When are you gonna marry Kelly and have me a grandchild?" C'mon! That's insane...and that terrifies the hell out of me...but I'm willin' to face that fear for you. Because to be quite honest I'm way more scared of NOT havin' you in my life. I love you Kelly Armstrong Scott...with everything my three-sizes-too-small Brandon Lowery Robles heart has..
ps. I proofread this to make sure it's relatively coherent.
And I'd love to...but I'm a shit person. A dude like me does not deserve a girl like you. But that's just current me...I'm doin' everything I can to one day eventually have you in my life every day. I've already given up weed...not so much for you...but because it can open new shit that'll help me make it easier to one day take care of you. As much as I loved marijuana I love Kelly Scott more.
And I'm sore-ree for soundin' like a crazy ass dude...but havin' you here and watchin' how you fit into my world made me realize that you're who I ultimately want to be with...and I know maybe you've always thought the whole Marry Kelly Scott Plan was a joke...and it kind of was...to an extent. But after this weekend...I can see that my joke was far ahead of my true intentions. I love you Kelly Scott. I love everything about you. Every single little Goddamn thing...and I can't imagine ever bein' happy without you. So I've buried this in your LJ...maybe one day you'll see it. I hope it's not anytime soon..I have a lot to prove and I want to get to a place where I'm a better man so I can take care of you and we can share every single moment together. I know it all sounds nuts...but love makes you crazy. And I know we fit...and I know one day we'll end up together. Hell even my damn Mom said tonight..."When are you gonna marry Kelly and have me a grandchild?" C'mon! That's insane...and that terrifies the hell out of me...but I'm willin' to face that fear for you. Because to be quite honest I'm way more scared of NOT havin' you in my life. I love you Kelly Armstrong Scott...with everything my three-sizes-too-small Brandon Lowery Robles heart has..
ps. I proofread this to make sure it's relatively coherent.
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